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Once in a blue moon,

2012-02-27T17:20:00.000+08:00

Ohyes, i'm home early today like once in a blue moon, a good girl and felt kind of tired so i guess, i shall do some blogging, revision and have an early night tonight(?) Maybe, oh, someone is going to be sad if i do. Whoops, :/ Wellwell, went out yesterday's evening, hang around at Vivocity, and it was an awesome night! Heart-to-heart chats and i had two donuts! Yummy and delicious! ♥ Guess what?, his phone love me too much to die, OHYES! (Y) Anyways, school was quite okay today, lesson was still alright, MdmChua and MdmSoo never come to school today and i don't have homework today! After so many weeks of school, could say the first time!! MsGoh is just a fucked up, kept on chasing us on our homework and it's just so annoying. Today's lesson was quite a fail one, i mean she just teach 10% of my class people in class today, the rest of us, don't bother. Eunice, Sharfana and me just copied Chinyong's work after school and hand up. Don't even bother to care.! Hmm, so yeah, came home early and cooked myself a bowl of spicy noodles, so happy and full now! Hee, C: But i didn't have peachtea, was wanting to drink peachtea but the shop i went to, never sell so i had Greentea instead! Whatever it is, it is okay, i guess, i can drink it tomorrow. Ohwell, going to do my stuff now. Shall blog soon~

Excos' night out,

2012-02-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

Hey yeah, i'm back from a day out with quite a number of people. Had study session with Kabilan and he's nothing but a retard. I know right, everyone else know it too. Well, saw Darrel, JinSheng, our school Dancers, Nabilah, Sunthar, Allen and some others too. Okay so i studied all they way till 6pm and somehow accompanied Darrel for awhile and he bully me.! ><" Off to meet Elson, Shenghong, Annabel and waited for Ronald, he's so late! Rofl! :/ Today was just an Excos' night with Annabel, Elson, Ronald and Shenghong. We had Pasta Mania for dinner! Not really delicious though, was having weird stomach since i went out today! Really sucky to have this feeling. Hopefully, i will be fine soon! Ohyes, went walking around Mark and Spencer and Broadwalk after dining. There's fireworks tonight, beautiful much! Home early today and yes, saw Zhonglin, Shuping and Yongkiat when we were taking the Mrt back! Sent Annabel home with Elson, saw Joey, Derrian and friends. Ohyes, thanks Elson for sending me home too,! C: Saw quite a number of familiar faces everywhere i go, what a day!

From the start, nothing's true, replacing is.. Sometimes, i think the problems lies with me..

Milestone walk,

2012-02-24T14:45:00.000+08:00

Yes, it's a day for all graduating students to have their Milestone walk to Marina Barrage today, a 12km walk! Somehow this year is kind of boring, there's no more sense of achievement when you walked for the second time. No more, :C The walk seems to be much faster than the first time we walked and my class wasn't as hyper as last year, guess i was the only want who is so crazy and hyper at the back with some hyper people, :/ Well, i guess all those really hyper people left the class.. But still, it was fun with Eunice, Rachel, Seemun, Pamela, Priscilla, Debbie, Sunthar, Benedict, Yangjie and etcetc.. Guess it wasn't so bad after all, 'best' things was i didn't sweat much when i reached Marina Barrage. Didn't feel hot when i reached till i went up to fly those kites. It was a total fail kay, the kits does not fly~ Ohwell, going to rest for awhile and up again, maybe heading out! C:

Just ranting,

2012-02-20T19:44:00.000+08:00

I just .. Just need a freaking hell place to vent all i could find today. First and for most, homework, why can't i be a smart student instead of being someone so dumb. Every now and then unable to catch up with everyone else? Why! Why are some people just born smart and me, so dumb, so stupid. I don't know what can i say about myself.. Homework are pending and fuck.. Like really, i feel so useless at times. I mean, why does my mum even give birth to me? But still, i thank her for giving birth to me, to let me realise the beautiful part of my 12years and those irritating shyts i've been through or am going to go through next. Next, i'm feeling rather bother with family issues. I know it's his birthday, i'm sorry for not being at home but is that what you guys called a family dinner? NO! It's my fault for that issue but have you all think how i would feel when all of you force me to do something i really hate? I mean you told me last minute things all the freaking time and i have to study, i don't have plenty of time with you people. I know, it's my bloody fault and who cause all this out? Him! -- Feeling really crappy inside with all these bullshyts you know..! Do you people know how i feel. Put yourselves in my shoes, feel how i really feel, will you? Stop forcing me really. I really hope someday, the car will bang me, the sea will carry me away, and just, just let me rest, in peace. Regret when i'm gone, bytches!

Embrace,

2012-02-19T14:38:00.003+08:00

Way back to blogging, was really tired yesterday, so yeah, shall update now before i go ahead with my homework, i have piles of them! :/ Happy 17th, to Yongjiannnnnn~ Yesterday, the 18th, met up with some awesome people, Charlene, Chongkai, Weijian and Darren at the Mrt station and headed to look for Leo at Bendemeer market. Soon, Eunice came and also, Melvin who just woke up. Went to buy our brunch and Darrel came after that, when all of us finished eating.! Next, took bus down to East Coast and Leo cycled there. When we reached East coast, we were all caught in the rain and smart Leo, asked us to meet him at Macs and guess what, he's not wet at all! It was freaking cold, really really cold. :/ As the rain gets smaller, we walked our way to the bicycle shop to rent our bikes. Had fun cycling with those awesome people! All our shirts are filled with muddy muddy mud, dirty much~ I don't know how far we cycled but according to Charlene's blog, it's Changi Airport! Cycled back really slow and Charlene accompanied me! ♡ Returned bikes and guess what, the guys were so clever to wash the mud away from their shirts, and it was clean! (Y) Aha, to Burger king to have our lunch or rather dinner, i don't know. Nice meal though! Macs for toilet and Leo went off after that. Walked our way to the bus stop near to Parkway Parade and Melvin went off. The rest of us, Charlene, Eunice, Chongkai, Darrel, Darren, Weijian and me, we walked our walk to Parkway Parade's shopping mall. On the way, Eunice was craving for Yogurt and we stop by a Yogurt shop. Caught up with the rest and we hanng around the mall, i swear i'm really tired. When we are about to take bus home, Eunice and Darrel went off taking bus 31 and the rest, 43. So yeah, accompanied Weijian and somehow had chats in between. Fall asleep thrice on Weijian's shoulder, thanks eh! C: Feeling rather dead when i reached Punggol, home sweet home by Mrt next. Weijian "send" me home and he bully me. :/ Okay, i'm done with blogging, so homework time! Bye,

Dearest, sorry to make you so worried last last night and last night, i know i shouldn't blame myself. (Last last night) Life isn't always, my way. You know, i appreciate all that you have done last night, those texts filled with your love! Yeah, i won't fuck my life, i won't. (Last night) Sorry for not updating my blog, was really tired. But still.. Anyways, sorry for making you worried too, :/ No worries now! Thanks and Sorry, ♡♡♡!

Twins' day out, ♡♡

2012-02-17T22:10:00.000+08:00

Seventh week of school down! Hellyeah, had a really terrible week this week, compared to others. I know, like everyone else, homework are stacking and pilling like nobody's business, teachers are giving out homework like we doesn't have enough of it! I know right, the first thing i would rant is always homework, cause it's the facts. :/ Next, all about lesson, it's nothing really special. Just didn't have a sweaty Pe lesson for two weeks but today's Pe lesson was real funny. We have Seemun dancing and not forgetting Nathiyah, the one who roll her way down! *laughs* Could say that it's the first awesome time, i laughed so hard at my classmate, her. AAHAHHAHHAHAH, till now when i think about it i laugh like a mad one. Way too funny, way too funny~ Nothing really special for this week, only Valentines' which falls on the 14th, Total defence which falls on the 15th and today, the 17th, went on a lovely date with my twinney, Charlene! ♡ The date started like this, met up with her and decided to have lunch at DhobyGhuat's Pizzahut. Walked around the whole PlazaSing, to look for some gifts. Next, we decided to go to Clarke Quay and we started walking from Park Mall. Kind of lost but managed to walk our way out, did some exercise but fats ain't burn! Unlike Charlene, she was sweating when we reached ClarkeQuay. Hang around and had dessert at the shop when we first had our dessert for the very first time. The shop has a slogan, 'The sweetness of life starts here', nice slogan though. Waited for sun to set and hang around ClarkeQuay, fun day, i would say~ Okay, shall end here, tired much! :/

It reminds me of us, reminds me of those words you have said, reminds me of those silly things we have done, awesome us~ ♡♡

Will you be my, Valentines'?

2012-02-14T21:36:00.002+08:00

Hey people, how's your Valentines'? Well, i had mine great and awesome with awesome peeps, like although i had Mt Irp till around 4pm. School was rather bored and tiring but still, managed to high myself up, i mean get myself high! Anyways, sold roses with Eunice, Charlene, Peiyun, Norman, Jinhin, Yijun, Yutong and i think Yanxin during recess and we kind of sold all those roses, good job!. C: Was slacking away, feeling really tired as i didn't had much sleep last night. Ohya, Eunice dedicated song for the awesome people!! Not forgetting, Eunice and me dedicated birthday song to Priscilla! Happy 17th birthday to my dear girl, PriscillaLim.! ♥♥ Weisi bought me a rose and Weijian bought me three roses!! ♥ Aha, today's recess was kind of dead, i think i didn't have the feel to eat though.. Back to class for Poa lesson and i went crazy! Somehow, i think Benedict thinks that i'm ohsocrazy today when he sit beside me in class, during Poa lesson! I was singing like a mad girl, "my body lies over the ocean~~" Okay whatever, i'm so random. Skip on the lesson part and ohyes, Nikhil gave me rose too, and the whole of 4n4 thought he's my boyfriend now, Ohmy! :/ Well, Kabilan gave me a 'rose' and a letter too, how sweet! Ohyeah, Eunice gave me a gift and it was nicely wrap! Had a lovely, heartwarming dinner filled with love and all kind of smiles and laughter with Eunice, Charlene, Weijian, Darren and Chongkai! ♥ And i need to complete my homework now, sad life of mine, ohwell~ Lastly, i thank all those who gave me hugs today, Raquel, Eunice, Charlene, Priscilla and Weijian! ♥♥

Thanks for the long texts, *heart melts* It was really touching, thanks for making my Valentines' so awesome! Loves, ♥♥♥♥♥

Worried sick,

2012-02-12T06:51:00.009+08:00

A little summary on yesterday, so yeah, met up with Weijian to get back my jacket in the morning. POHWEIJIAN IS CUTE KAY! ♥ Back home and mummy bought me brunch! I don't know how much more brunch will i get from her, so shall not talk about the food but to appreciate the food bought for me. Roam around some areas, but still i can't find any Green rose, there's green flower but don't have green roses. :C Saw this family who took each other for granted and quarrelling with each other in public but yet, they don't feel ashamed at all.. What's wrong with these people? They have a family and they don't know how to cherish them. Pathetic people.. Home at around 6plus and rest for quite sometime. Managed to finish up some designs. Really happy with it, but still those design are still lack of something, i don't know what are those, trying to figure it out. Ohwell, had dinner with Zhonglin at Choice and we went Macs for consultation and also to meet Shuping, saw quite a number of familiar faces. It's just not a day to have consultation, while we were talking about some serious matter, the people who were watching soccer, shouted GOAL! Just imagine that. Still, managed to understand some complicated Maths! Only did Maths last night till around 11plus, after which, headed home with Shuping, Zhonglin and Ganesan! Been really long since i see Ganesan. Didn't manage to study when i'm home. Ohya, there's no more curry sauce in Macs and there's this uncle who bought Macs complained after he had bought his food. He even ask Macs to close down because of the curry sauce, what the hell is wrong people what the hell. Didn't managed to sleep well last night, couldn't stop thinking.. Up really early in the morning today, like around 4am.. Someone made me really worried, screw him! :/ Hopefully, he wakes up soon! Next, spent my morning reading articles on Websites, what a dead morning. Anyways, saw this article on two young Chinese women who were found dead at an isolated single-storey chalet at Aloha Changi on Thursday morning, found dead on the chalet’s bathroom floor, alongside two containers holding burnt ash. At times i really wonder, why so many passed away these few months. Hmm.. Shall come back for an update on my day today, if i feel like it.! C:

I know the last decision is still going your own way. I know those hurts, i know those feeling fades, i know those pain make you unable to bear anymore, i know it's hurting you hell loads, i know you don't want things to end, i know life isn't good, i know life isn't easy at all, i know all of it. I could see the pain in your tears, those hurts you have gotten but when it's time to let go, let go. Yes, i do feel like punching all your faces, shouting those nonsense into your face, run away from all this but i just can't do it. I got to be strong and face it. I wish and pray all night to have this great but still, you choose to end this.. Some hurts, hurts like nobody's business, kills like your heart is going to break and pains like you have just finish your surgery or i don't know what. Maybe you don't feel it, but do you know how much it's hurting each and every one of us. Maybe they don't feel it either but i do. All i want is to be happy, happy without all this shyts. I want it like before, those days were awesome.. Once the final decision is made and you decided to sign it, i don't have a choice, the only decision is to let all this disappear. It wouldn't be easy but i have to try, i need to know how to manage. Sometimes, i really wish i don't have to chose at all.. I don't want to only see one of you, i want to see both..

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Okay i'm back, with a smile on my face! *smiles* So let's talk about my lovely day with Charlene and Chongkai! My day went like this .. Waitwaitwait, before i say anything about my day, Weijian is so jealous of my boyfriend! Aha, ♥. I know, i know, he is going to ask me to go and die. Ohwell, met Charlene at Punggol Macs to study and Chongkai came after that. Managed to finish my Maths, i'm ohsoawesome! I was just kidding! Anyways, bought most of the things for gifts and i'm almost done and ready to see all my love ones' expression! Shall stop here, i'm tired, goodnights~~

Giftgiftgift,

2012-02-11T03:31:00.000+08:00

Okay, i can't sleep so i'm just here to update my blog~ Sixth week of school, just normal studying and yes, i've completed my Netball for this year and shall concentrate more on studies now till Os' are over. Ohyes, had E-learning with my class at Computer lab 4 on Thursday, quite fun but the room was super cold. :/ School is boring, as boring as ever! Ohoh, i've got a new classmate this week, KevinFoo! Well, there is just nothing much to talk about my lovely school and dearest lessons so it's just a short summary! Kind of feel the stress of Os' now, feeling really tired and couldn't concentrate much. Ohyeah, i did something meaningful today! Went out with Charlene to Vivocity and CitySquare to get some gifts. Bought some D.I.Y stuffs, i've done up two of it, awesome me! Aha, kidding! Bought food and drinks for Eunice, Priscilla, Weijian, Kunfeng and other Ncc guys. Slacked awhile in the canteen and home to put my stuff. Out again to meet Elson for dinner at Dhoby's Just Acia, been really long since i had Just Acia. Awesome meal and Elson totally made a fool out of himself. HAHA! Like a fool! Anyways, bought some other materials and i still cannot find the green rose for Charlene and some other gifts! Howhowhow? :/ Shall head out to look for those gifts and do some homework~

BDMS NETBALL LOVELIES~

2012-02-08T19:58:00.011+08:00

Big thankyou to my lovelies for completing my last year of Secondary Netball life ; Jean, Rongrong, Huishan, Hongling, Xinyi, Charmaine, Kristy, Toon, Mavis and Leehui! ♥♥

Yes, our match with St.Margs, Guangyang, HolyInnocent and AngMoKio officially ended. All the matches results was a lost but that doesn't really matter, what matters most is what we actually gain from those matches. Of course like every other school, at times we played till really lousy but at times, effort were seen on court. Perseverance, Endurance, Confidence and Motivation was our key to success this year~ St.Margs's match was not really well played but we did improve on Guangyang's match. Many of us shed our tears on court after the last whistle was blown, we all know that the feeling ain't great at all. So we actually wanted to proof ourselves and so, we push ourselves for our game with HolyInnocent, still we didn't make it through but we were at least happy that we actually put in more effort than playing against Guangyang for our game with HolyInnocent. A great fight, i would say. Lastly, for today against AngMoKio, it was a great match without our coach. Whatever the results is, we know that we won't be able to win that school, they are the school who achieved top four in Netball and amazingly, the girl i admire from that school was a great sportsman since young! (Y) I could say all of the school we played with actually improved and did a really great job playing against us. Those efforts made was amazing! Despite all those lost, i really think that my lovelies (BMDS Netball Team) did a really good job while playing the game with our opponent. No matter how much we have lost the game, i always see those motivation that my girls gave to each other, encouragement to not tears anymore. Those perseverance on court, endurance towards the opponents' dirty tricks and the empire's lousiness in umpiring. My shooters having confidence in shooting, players having confidence in passing the next pass and all players, having trust in each other's passes. I'm actually really pleased with all their performance, be it good of bad, efforts were displayed. Below are some words for my girls, so if you don't want to read it anymore, do visit my Weebly for today's photo~

And to my girls ; Good job girls! Thanks for being such an awesome team, my beloved B'girls! You guys simply rock my life away with Netball. Some of you only played with me only this year but yet, i seen how you guys actually go for every pass and not giving up. People who i've known a little longer, you guys never fail to make me feel great with you guys, as a team. We might have cried on court, laughed and play around during trainings and during a few matches, suffered through training and physical trainings, sweat through our whole sport journey till today, but i'm sure we all enjoyed ourselves right? Yes, we do have little conflicts but we do love each other very very much yeah? Forget about those conflict(s), live like how we have always have been living with. A peaceful team filled with extra loves, ♥♥♥ alrights? Well, we didn't achieve what we targeted for this year but don't fret over it okay? We came so far, not for the results, it's those efforts, those fun we had, and those love we shared together. And girls, please study hard and do come back for games when you graduated okay? Let's graduate together, do study hard and rock on lovelies~ Iloveyou girls, the team is complete with all of you, BS NETBALL WOOSH darlings~~~~~~ ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Perseverance,

2012-02-05T11:41:00.041+08:00

So yeah, i'm back update my lovely blog again, my blog is somehow really dead now. Somehow.. Anyways, it's International Kissing Day, aha! Nope, i don't mean anything. I'm just saying. Well, my fifth week of school ended and till now, i've yet to complete my 'lovely' homework. POA cannot balance, Maths still haven't finish, Chinese Compo too lazy to even start on it, i'm just lazy to write compo and it's chinese leyy! Someone save me please? Any kind soul? Whatever it is, my week went like this, Monday to Friday, Saturday and Sunday ; School was alright, i guess(?). Firstly, had match with St.Margs on Monday and Guangyang on Wednesday. Match with St.Margs was kind of expected but still, it was really .. I don't know how should i even describe that match. To me, the girls there changed, they don't play dirty in the past and yet, they are doing it now just like Guangyang. Sometimes, i really wonder, they are human so are we, why can't we play as well as them? Not including the dirty tricks and plays from them. Secondly, on Guangyang's match, yeah we lost. The feeling, it's still there, i still feel so .. Y'know. Tried very much to smile again and to make myself happy but all those happiness disappeared when we the final whistle was blown and when we know we have lost that match. With that particular match, it can help us to get in second round, we all know we can do it, but all of us failed to do so. From the way that we were playing, we can achieve what we wanted.. On Wednesday, Thursday or even on Friday, wasn't in my best mood and i totally ignore souls who asked for the result on Guangyang's match, not all but most of them. Well, who, who can actually feel the hurt and the sadness in the B'girls'? Who?, not many, others just cared about the results. Is the result really important?! Somehow i felt very much like, you know. Well, i know. The outcome is never important, it's the process on how you take things one step at a time. Yet, the outcome determine our game play on either we go into the next round or not.

Ohwell, let's just drop this subject. Having the rest of the two matches next week with HolyInnocent and AngMoKio. Thirdly, my studies, it's somehow so stressful and it's like going down the drain, :/ Haven't been playing or releasing any stress out of myself. I've this really strong feeling that i'm going to fall sick really soon, really really soon. If i still continue to do what i'm doing now. I find myself really weak at times, not able to conquer what i'm suppose to conquer and not going out to have fun when i'm supposed to. For example today, supposed to head out to catch up with my asses but i'm not going out with those asses to East Coast anymore, i need to complete my 'lovely' homework and it's somehow driving me, really mad. Ohyes, and yesterday, spent my day at home to finish my homework but till today, it's not done. Had consultation with Zhonglin and Shuping yesterday, thanks to them, i'm finished quite a number of homework but not all i think. And today, home to complete the rest of the work, can't even finish. Guess i will just finish most of them. Oh hey people, it's Valentines' next week and i have yet to get my gifts for my girls and others. Valentines' is just a normal day right? :/ Ohyes, had languages irp and POA lesson after both irp on Tuesday and Thursday, really stressed up. I forgotten how to do my disposal's question, how awesome can i be.. Set that aside, i went to catch the movie ; 'I'm Not Naughty' with Charlene on Friday at Nex, awesome movie i would say, rating 5 out of 5, very touching. I understand the pains and sufferings my mummy went through and how a broken family works. It's really a nice movie, for those who haven't caught that movie, go catch it, watch it. And i admire that lady who shave her hair just for that movie.! (Y) You go girl! And Charlene and Weijian gave me hugs for this whole week, awesome! ♥ LALALA~, awesomeness~ Hee~

Next, i've yet to recover from my injuries after the match that i fall.. Hopefully, all those minor injuries recover by Monday and let me play really hard for the last two matches with HolyInnocent and AngMoKio on Monday and Wednesday. Ohyes, last and for most, congratulation to our school Soccer team and Sepak Taraw for their wins and cheer up on your loses. Same goes to my girls, although we have lost, cheer up and the last two matches will be starting real soon. Let's finish this together and fight aggressively. After which, do study hard and excel for your Os' and Ns'! ♥♥

If you don't know how to control your temper, don't talk to me. I only talk to resonable people. I have already told you, if you want me to change my life, it's impossible. Er no, it's possible but i won't change. I live my life the way i want. Really.. I won't change for people, i am who i am. I don't have to change to make you like me or anything, you can dislike or even hate me, i won't entertain you. I don't know you for long, we ain't really close, so i don't see why you can bring up every little things and at most of the time talk about bgr. If you think i will be your girl, you are wrong. Like i've said, i would rather want a bestfriend then a boyfriend. I don't need a boyfriend.. And, i don't have feelings kay, i don't feel a thing at all. So be it, i'm like this, so yeah!

OHDEAR, :C

2012-01-31T20:13:00.001+08:00

Time simply files, i'm having my second match tomorrow with Guangyang, and i don't feel good now. The first match was a total failure with St.Marg and i can't understand why, i feel so, so .. Somehow managed to clam myself down by watching soccer playing. Super dramatic, did smile a little, i tried really hard. Next, schoolwork is driving me crazy! I mean, schoolwork are driving me to the corner and it totally sucks. At times, i don't know why i kept on thinking of what will happen next, in the future or even the next few minutes. :/ To be truth, i don't like my life now, super no life. All i do is, study and play Netball. I don't often go out now, >< I don't enjoy much of life now, i feel so stress up. Unable to release my emotions and anger all the time. What should i do? What can i do? And oh, it's the last day of January and homework are piling like crazy! With craziness instead. Recently, i do feel out of breath, being unable to catch up with everything and it's like things are moving so fast! :/ What's best?, our funfair is coming up and that project is such an ass now! --

The best feeling to me, is to hug someone really tight, tears and let go of my emotions and lastly, lean on a shoulder. C:

Appreciated,

2012-01-29T16:41:00.011+08:00

First week of school was still manageable, i guess. Didn't really feel much stress or anything but after the freaking hell first week, i'm having lesser and lesser time to do what i want to do.. And somehow on the first week of school, i nearly died! Packed with all those Netball trainings and yes, Orientation Camp which was held on Saturday! Ohya, the second week and third week of my school days ain't looking good either. Could really see people who really stress themselves out and those who doesn't really care about their studies. Somehow i asked myself every single time, why is life so unfair, why are people who are much more smart and more clever than the others? Why! :/ And nope, it doesn't help by asking this questions! Soon, the third week of school ended and the fourth week came, a Chinese New Year week.! I totally wasted my day for this week, totally. I don't find myself productive this week and i don't find myself studying and working hard. I very much feel like giving it up but thanks to that awesome someone, who 'bring' me out to have fun yesterday! Felt so awesome yesterday but it was a really tiring day, but filled with warmness!. C: Okay yes, it's going to be the fifth week of school and yeah, it's a really busy week from tomorrow onwards. Homework are stacking up and my schedule are all so screwed up, :/ Very screwed up! And yes, our Southzone match is starting tomorrow against St.Marg, tomorrow is our big day. Hopefully nothing screwed up! For this week, i'm totally screwed if i don't hurry myself to finish up all my stacks of homework and the timetable for my study plan for term one.. At times, i really wish i can really collapse right away and never wake up! I don't want to face the reality, it's just so not nice at all.. Facing the reality is like a form of torture and it's suffering. :/

Anyways, Jan30, Feb01, Feb06 and Feb08!, i'm getting excited and nervous for all Netball matches! Girls, remember how all of us used to tear after some games and encouraging each other with Yiyong with us? I'm sure all of us misses Yiyong right! It's really a lesson learnt, hopefully we will make it this year, i really really hope! No more overconfidence this year, alrights? Let's just take it slow and do it right. Yes, we may meet strong schools like St.Marg and AMK but all we have to do is to put in all our best yeah? Let do this together and play cool~ I hereby wish my girls best of luck and we shall Gambatte together! Hopefully, we can achieve what we always wanted, iloveyougirls! ♥♥♥♥♥♥ C:

Tell me, tell me why do i still think of you at times and get jealous when i see you with her? Probably, it reminds me of us, and yes, it really does remind me about our past.! I mean it's been really long but why do i still feel this way? Get over it, Evan!

We're traveling down the love lane, down the road, we shall meet again~

2012-01-26T13:51:00.000+08:00

Hello Earth, World, Species, Humans, etcetc! Last night was great and i even got myself hangover! Woohooooo~ Indeed the feeling of hangover isn't good but still, who cares? Eunice, Chiweng, Sunthar, Andy, Ronald, Teckhuat and Fabian came over to my house for CNY dinner and to collect red packets from mummy. Thanks mummy for preparing the food and getting breezer for us, it's great. I had a great dinner with these awesome peeps and i kind of look forward to Eunice's house visit! Anwyas, after Eunice, Chiweng, Sunthar, Andy, Ronald, Teckhuat and Fabian left last night, Jekkeat, Darwin, Shawn, Yujun, Edmund came and korkor came back! I think they played Mahjong till 4plus or even 5. Crazy people who doesn't have school today. So yeah, didn't attend school today as i wasn't feeling good at all. Headache this morning and i actually woke up at 7:38am! Awesome timing to wake up for a run if i go to school but nope, i'm not crazy to go to school for run! So i somehow went back to sleep. Ohyeah, mummy goes to JB today and i'm totally bored, i'm alone at home again! :/ Andy hey, my photos are up and updated too at http://f-adedsmiles.weebly.com/! Do enjoy, shall blog next time! ♥♥

CNY DAYTWO ~

2012-01-24T10:42:00.004+08:00

HAPPY CHNESE NEW YEAR BYTCHES! LALALA!, i'm currently waiting for my brothers to be ready. You know they are like slowpokes, super slow. Even me, i'm already dress up and they are like heading to shower now. Kind of slow of them. Well, i went to my grandparent's house yesterday at Tampiness and i was freaking bored. I was there since 12plus and my cousins and their parents only came after 7pm, which is like 7 hours of eating and talking with Grandpa. Anyways, heading to find Charlene and Eunice at Sengkeng Macs and slacked. At least it's better than staying at Grandparent's house. Home sweet home with Eunice and managed to talk quite a lot of things with her. And last night was a sleepless night, i only managed to sleep for two to three hours, tired much. Today, i'm heading to Aunt's house at Sengkang for the whole freaking day! Hopefully awesome things happened later on! Shall update soon, ♥♥ Bye people! C:

Chinese New Year Eve ~~

2012-01-22T20:29:00.005+08:00

I back to use the computer and yes, first thing i would do is update my poor blog! First week, Second week and now, the Third week ended too!! Third week of school was still okay, but i'm weak! Superb weak! So my week went like this ; My Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and today, Sunday went off really well. Netball Southzone postponed and all our hopes went down the drain. Our hopes and excitement turned into disappointment and somehow the girls lose faith.. So end up, those school we gotten are St.Marg, Guangyang, HolyInnocent and AMK. But still, "a sportsman don't give up and stop fighting till the final whistle is blown." Someone told me this, and yes, i agree. If we fight on and focus, we will get what we always want! Okay, drop that subject. Ohyes, i had gathering dinner with my awesome group of brothers and sisters ; Eunice, Charlene, Jiamin, Chiweng, Andy, Sunthar on Tuesday, the 18th at Serangoon ; Nex Ajisen. It was an awesome one, pretty glad to see all of them all. Somehow they are kind of happy with their life. Andand, fall sick on Thursday so i didn't go to school and coincidentally, Weijian and Ronald didn't go to school too. Hee, dinner with my excos ; Ronald, Elson, Shenghong, Alwin, Calvin and Huangjing on Friday night, the 20th at Somerset's Long John Silver and it was really awesome too. Huangjing told me this joke that Boonhuat told me, and i laughed till my stomach felt the painfulness. HAHA!, it was a super silly joke but i couldn't stop laughing. Walked our way from Somerset to Plaza Sing, and from Plaza Sing to Clarke Quay, and i totally love Clarke Quay night life. Freaking awesome and not forgetting the joke! Lastly, i went out with another awesome group of people ; Charlene, Weijian, Chongkai, Leo yesterday, which is 21st! Went to Katong to have Katong Laska, Katong 112 to walk around and there's this soft toy shop which is filled with lots and lots of soft toy with all kind of size, super cute! (Y) And after which, we headed to Macpherson to have Beancurd and i only get to see. :/ Jealous much! Anyways, the fourth week is going to start soon and i kind of feel weird. Somehow i know that i'm not going to enjoy my CNY but yet, i'm trying to make it fun and filled with smiles and laughter. I managed to know some sense in me and CNY only happened once in a year so why not cherish it. It might not be the whole family i used to have in the past but at least some, right? I don't know how will the next week be but i know, it's going to be great hopefully! *prays* AHA, that's all for today! Anyways, happy new year eve everyone! C:

What's wrong? :/

2012-01-19T08:22:00.001+08:00

Yes, as compared to you, i might not be the one who doesn't need to study and could obtain a really amazing result. You're smart, i'm stupid but at least i know what's right. :/ You used to be someone i could talk to but now, nope. Don't you understand what's happening? Don't you? :/ Who can actually understand how i really feel inside? Okay, i didn't go to school today and i don't have a reason, i just don't feel like it. I've to face the people out their with all my fake emotions and of course with a positive attitude. For now, i can't even establish a happy me so how am i going to make others feel alright? Making others feel alright is somehow way easier than making myself happy. Some of you out there will agree that previous sentence i've typed. I seriously want a warm hug, a shoulder for me to cry on and someone to talk to. And at the same time, i don't talk to people about my feelings and all. I don't know what's wrong with me recently, like seriously.. I got to knock some sense into myself!. Really. C:

The third week of stress,

2012-01-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

As my title says it's the third week of school and many people are down with stress. Especially Eunice. I hope she's fine, god bless her. Like her, i very much want to give up on my studies but as i think back about the promises i have made with her before even choosing to return to SecFive, i can't give up. I got to push her as well as myself and i cannot let down people who have high hopes of me. Anyways, it's really stressing and i'm ain't coping very well already. My mind asked me to give up and choose the easy way out but my heart asked me to stay and work hard for it. So what should i do? Stay on and work hard or take the easy way out? Thinking back of the how the Olevel student took their results and not forgetting their expression given. Well, if i'm going to give up, who will save me? Nobody will. And oh my gosh, tests are coming up and stress are added, how? Only i know the answer! C:

Anyways school today was kind of dead. Am having test on Natural vegetation on the next lesson which is on Thursday. :/ Maths was as per normal and i'm not doing good at all. Poa was such a fucked up and somehow i still don't understand the disposal accounts and stuff, all i did was copy without any understanding at all. Pathetice me.! Next, for Social studies, MrTham was a total joke. Chongkai, Eunice, Charlene and me could not stop laughing at his synthesis dance. (Y), HAHA! Had English as the last lesson and it was kind of dead too. :/ Took yearbook during assemble and it was superb bored, i nearly fall asleep. Ohya, i had two new classmates today! Welcomewelcome!! And also, had Poa extra lesson after school. Ohoh, thanks Elson for teaching me Chemistry. After consultation, dinner with Andy and Elson at Macs. Awesome meal! Slacked awhile and i'm blogging now! C:

Mobile update, C:

2012-01-15T22:39:00.001+08:00

Peekaboo people!, the second week of school is over and it's the third week of school tomorrow. Haven't been using the computer because of some issues at home but still i'm not using the computer now, i'm using my phone to update this 'dead' blog, so there won't be any photo attached. :/ Could only blog a little as my phone can only type a certain amount of words so shall get to the point. Lessons for the past one week has been fine and trainings were quite fun too. Oh, our zonals were postponed! Kind of good and at the same time bad. :/ One week with a Monday looking at the Olevel students taking their results. Tuesday with Mtirp and training attached. Wednesday with mastery test. Thursday with English irp and training. Friday with extra Poa lesson, dinner with two of my darlings and doing homework. Saturday and obviously today a Sunday, were for homework. Anyways, it isn't a good week. Hoping much for more better weeks to come. Shall end here! C:

Just one week gone,

2012-01-08T14:27:00.000+08:00

It's officially the last day of the first week of school and i'm feeling totally weak. Was wondering to myself just now, if this continues i would be so dead for school. So i kind of think back about this week and realise that it's not a tiring weak for me. I have been through more tiring stuff and i shouldn't be complaining with such little stuff. So yes, the construction ended and i'm going to start my homework soon. Hopefully i will blog later, if not, tomorrow. Shall see how.! Byes, C:

SecOne's Orientation Camp,

2012-01-07T23:59:00.001+08:00

Hello awesome readers', i'm still freaking tired and of course, i'm back for some updates on school and not forgetting, the SecOne Orientation Camp on both 6th and 7th, Friday and Saturday of those week in Jan! <: On the 6th, a Friday, school was as per normal in the morning and lesson was as per normal too! Let me recap a little on those lesson on Friday, here goes ; First Pe lesson was just us, the class conducting Captain ball and afterwhich Mr Zuhri's debrief. Could say that my class is kind of independence when it comes to PE! We somehow know what to do without Mr Zuhri's instructions. We are running our 2.4km run for Napfa in a week time which is the next Friday on 13th. The black Friday? O.o Whatever it is, Physic, Englsh and Maths was still fine and school was quite fast that day. Off to have lunch with my girls after school at Choice and only i ate. After eating, went Shengsiong with Charlene while Eunice and Priscilla went back to school, bought lollipops! Back home to put some things and Charlene's sushi into the fridge! Off to school, played some games here and there with different people and up to the hall to see their rehearsal, pretty nice. It was the first time seeing the NCC guys so serious on stage and Darren was so sexy on the stage FOR THE FIRST TIME! Back home with Charlene as she collect her sushi and bags to go back to school to find Chongkai. Ronald, Shenghong and Elson waited for me to prepare and shower. They were like little kids playing in the living room.! HAHA!, off to school after i had showered to meet up with Annabel, Alwin, Calvin and the other councillors. Help those councillors to settle those students and slacked our day off in the school. Went up to the hall with Shenghong and the NCC boys are so hardworking, they are still rehearsing and i hope Yushu is chilled by now. Every soul had attitude so he's kind of expected too. Saw Sholihin and he always look smart in uniform! Got to know more about his course and it's like cool much!

Out to Choice to pack for dinner for Excos' and Ex-Excos'. Didn't have much appetite so i only had watermelon and the watermelon suck, like totally! Only had two mouth and i threw it away. Sat there to chat with Annabel, Ronald, Elson, Alwin, Shenghong and Calvin awhile and off to watch those stars up in the sky but myself. Sitting down there, i have plenty of thoughts. I actually saw i became who i am, like now and all. Those stuff i have been those, those shyts i have been though and those awesome with all my lovelies. Time files, it's the fifth SecOne orientation Camp i have in my school, obviously not all were from my batch, new batches comes in every year, be it good or bad. I sat there thinking and more came in to my mind. Anyways, Elson and Alwin came over to talk to me about some stuff and we had a great time chatting. I saw two UFO, red and white. Now i believe Engkiat's words. Okay, i'm thinking way too much but an aeroplane doesn't fly pass so fast like those yesterday! So yeahs, took some pictures when Shan, Jiahui and her friend came over, did jump shots too, super fail! HHAHAH, we totally jump like some mad people. Soon, had a heart-to-heart session with Boonhuat in the canteen, impressive answers from him i would say. Great chat and thanks Yushu for helping me to buy dinner, i didn't finish though. Thanks Weijian for the peach tea and end up, i had two bottles of peach tea but still, thanks! Well, the Ncc boys went up for meeting i think with MrSeah. Talked to Shenghong and MrsPoon came. Disturbed her and she look kind of pissed and she's so kaypo! :x Around 10pm, the SecOnes' came back, all of them look so tired, including the councillors. The kids, SecOnes', had supper and soon ready for showering or bathing! Ohya, Weijian gave me green light stick, super nice green! (Y) Thanks Weijian! Ohoh, back to topic, the girls went one by one to shower and they were taking so long. Tried to unlock one locked door but failed. Borrow stick from Ncc and someone requested for a hug in exchange for the stick. I wonder who! HAHA!, but also failed at unlocking. End up, i gave up and like always, banging on the door, shouting for the girls and asking them to hurry.

The shouting, banging and asking lasted till around 1am plus. Had debriefing in the DM room with Mr Zuhri with the councillors and Excos. After meeting, tried to sleep but couldn't. End up, Elson and i lay down on the platform and watch stars. We fall asleep. I slept from 2.30am till 2.36am, was freezing cold, shivering like one kind. Thanks to the Ncc boys, Weijian and Yushu, we sat down there chatting and making each other laugh. It was a wonder morning with them, together with Elson, Shenghong, Annabel and Calvin. And Yushu is kind of fail, he was injured while jumping up the steps. As Charlotte and the red cross people came out, they thought it was fake and when they realise the injury is real, they gave the super funny expression which kept me laughing. Accompanied Weijian to take Yushu's socks and the NCC room is so ... Y'know what is it. I don't know how the Ncc boys bear with it. Are they immune to it or something? Interesting though. Woke Peiyun and girls up to let them prepared. Ohyes, went home to shower and back to school to prepare for Netball. Played some games, hang around and all. Thanks Brenda, Syahida, Estee, Qianya and Vanessa to come down to play games with us, totally appreciated. Ohwell, pass Weijian his jacket as he borrowed me last night. A BIG THANKYOU TO POHWEIJIAN! Reached home, had lunch, fall asleep on the floor. (Y) Woke up and now, blogging. Oh, the photos are up at my weebly, do enjoy! Whatever it is, i enjoyed myself, be it day or night. Thanks people! ♥♥ So shag now!, so tired even after i sleep for long hours. Super duper tired. Of course, i'm drained, totally no energy to do things which require big amount of energy. Shall finish up my homework tomorrow, i don't think i could go out. Down with fever, nearing 39 degrees, AWESOMELY HOT! Ohmygees~~ Hee, C:

I really thank you for all those that you have done. Especially when you are also cold and y'know. Thankyou, i owe you one! So takecare, ♥♥! See you around! C:

Milk + Strawberry = Lollipop! ♥

2012-01-05T20:41:00.003+08:00

Like those picture above, people end up to be alone in the end and somehow when i needed that someone he left. I don't blame him, i know he's in a very difficult position at that point in time. I have no idea why, memories flew pass the moment i saw those pictures. Well, guess it somehow unforgettable? I have no idea. Shall not think so much! I know i have been a little too much. Shall turn in early tonight and get my alarm set, and AWESOME HUMAN is sending me a morning text tomorrow to wake me up. Hopefully i don't fall back asleep, :/ Anyways, school was still great, smiled to make myself even happier. I have no idea why i kept on asking why this, why that, why here, why everything! Why? See, i asked again! :/ I find it annoying but i just can't stop. Ohwell, lesson was quite slack and kind of okay. Maths lesson was just worksheets and yesterday's homework. Geography was just notes and new topic started, Natural vegetation and not forgetting out homework given today! Recess came and Eugene gave Eunice some chocolate bars for us, thanks Eugene! (: The fried rice didn't taste good and didn't have much appetite, forced myself to finished it all. :/ Next up was English and MrsLo was talking non-stop for about one period and we got down to writings and yes, homework for resolution! Chemistry was a mixed up, don't really know how to identify the acid, or whatever you all call that. So difficult. Gosh, cannot even understand. Lastly was Mt, it was still fine. At break time before going to Nanyang Poly, sat at canteen to chat with Charlene, Eunice and Priscilla. Got our asses moved at 2pm, headed to NYP. On the bus, Eunice, Priscilla, Benedict, Pamela, Rachel, Seemun, Sunthar, MdmSoo and me, we played games and MdmSoo was laughing like a mad. HAH, indeed it was funny, i laughed too. When we reached NYP, we had some briefing and it was pretty fail. Followed the tour guide around and it's kind of boring and obviously they failed but still thanks all those tour guides, Jasmine, Martin, etcetc! Ohyes, dinner with Sunthar, Weili and Johnathan. Jean, Rongrong and Weilun came later and had a little chat before moving off to Uncle to buy Peachtea and lollipop! Awesome, good deed done! *winks* Saw Teckhuat and chatted for quite long then home sweet home with Sunthar! Great day, i suppose! HAHA! C:

You, i don't know why you are in my head nowadays again. What's wrong? No matter what, you're in it. I wonder what's wrong. I really miss the old you when you will still make everything right, keep me accompanied till i fall asleep and get angry when i don't sleep! It's like what mummy should do, you're like a mummy to me. Maybe a big Mama! :x You like to throw temper like a kid, smiling like so cute kid and care like a big kid. I love those feelings. Awesome max, (Y)! You seem to have change quite a little but it's okay. I hope you will be like your former self. Smile more, i like it when you smile. Nice smile~~ C:

I'M HAPPY, SOME AWESOME HUMAN IS TAKING PHOTO WITH ME TOMORROW~~ ♥♥

Peachtea! (Y)

2012-01-04T20:51:00.005+08:00

LALALA, i can't stop it with my LALALA! :x Yesterday had a weird day during the nights. I vomiting due to i don't know why, no idea. Felt a little weird this morning too but still went to school like nothing happened to me before. I guess it's the soya bean earlier in the morning yesterday that mummy bought. Mummy buy one, of course must drink! It's SOYABEAN, y'know! :/ I guess i need some discipline on that! Ohwell, today spells Y.A.Y! I know what it is. My day was pretty great, filled with laughter and beautiful SMILES almost everywhere! Many of them smiled, i would say. My day started like this, with a silly smile because i forgotten to, i have forgotten to bring my thermometer and report book. How forgetful, shall hope that i will remember it tomorrow and thermometer on Friday! Some kind soul, reminders please? <: Ohyes, i remembered to sign those forms so i didn't forget much. Blame no one, but myself for being so forgetful. Assemble in class and managed to read much of my book, hee! First lesson of the day was Physic and it was just some recapping of the topic Waves! Then Social studies, did test. For some reason i don't know what, i think my book more interesting then the SBQ test! HAHA, but i did finish up before reading my book. Went for early recess and today's meal wasn't as pleasant, the food was like Ohmygees!! Mt was after recess and my Mt class only has nine students ; Charlene, Chongkai, Danielkhew, Marissa, Debbie, Samson, Boonhwee, Chinhao and me! The other class have thirty over. Didn't expected lesson to be quite great with all those 'BLACKS ; HEIREN', HAHA! The whole of 5n2 mt class burst out in laughter and so did my teacher. Back to class for Chemistry and MsWee is still my teacher and she's kind of blur. Somehow i'm not fated to be in the same class as Eunice when we split class. Just like Mt and Chemistry! We are fated for POA! Hellyeah! (: Not forgetting last two periods of Maths, like shyt! Totally cannot make it. How can a teacher not know if the answer is right. Yet, she ask students somemore. I totally agree with Eunice, we are going to fail our Os'. I'm not looking down at her but just look at how she teaches! Ohmy! :/ Nonono!, i cannot be regretting now, i have made up my mind and i should be concentrating on how to study hard for my Os' and nothing else. Regrets like this ain't worth. Lunch was at canteen and get down to homework, my Maths is dropping and i'm so sad!! Sigh, i can't afford to DROP!! :/ Anyways, Weijian bought me Peachtea and he smiled with his white white teeth again! OHYES!, i never fail! *winks* It's peachtea y'know, it's peachtea! PEACHTEA!! Woohooooooo~~ Accompanied Charlene to wait for Darren and Weijian to finished your Ncc, their show was so comedy. (Y) Had some small chats outside school before Darren and Weijian head out. Saw AndyHo too! Hee~ Uncleyap for peachtea and home sweet home. On the way home, memories returned. Remembered that we used to walk home together? It was pretty awesome right but then, it's no longer possible! I know that. C:

School reopen!!

2012-01-03T19:21:00.008+08:00

Hello all earthlings!, i'm back from school, from training too! Ohwell, i guess school was pretty alright but it was quite boring, fun and awesome, a mixed feeling i would say. Next, school started like this ; morning had assembly talks from the new Principal, Mr Lin and of couse our DM, Mr Zuhri. After the talks, back to class and MdmSoo kept on talking, talktalktalk! Like some barker-ians! Haiyo! :x Nearly fall asleep. Anyways, had recess and back to class, MdmSoo was talking again!! And finally when POA lesson have reached, she kept talking again! HAHA!, i was assigned to MsGoh's class by MdmSoo i guess. Should i be happy because i'm in the same class as Eunice or sad because i want MdmSoo to teach? Ohwell, should think about it then. After POA ended, MdmChua came in for Maths lesson, first lesson was still okay and hopefully she don't PMS for other lessons. Hee, had game for the last two periods and it was kind of EPIC fail! :/ Andand, thanks Yongkiat for bringing down books for me, appreciated much! ♥ Headed back home to place those heavy books and off to Macs to have lunch with Jean, Rongrong and Weilun. After which, back to school, was late for the first training and i totally lost my stamina. Was super tired after runs and sprints! Ohmygees~ Didn't expect it. Help Rongrong to train her shooting, kept the balls, wash hands and home sweet home. Ohya, POHWEIJIAN SMILE BRIGHT WITH HIS WHITE SHINY TEETH SHOWN, TOGETHER WITH CHOCOLATES IN HIS MOUTH! C:

Hey girl, if you want to continue, we will quarrel someday. Stop doing it before i do something to it. Y'know it's irritating right, so do i. Stop standing there and accuse me of doing that, which i didn't If you want me to do that continue! We shall see, smile sucker! I will have the last laugh, HAHA! C:

OMGEES~~

2012-01-02T12:29:00.001+08:00

Look at the facial expression and yes, it's my expression currently! :/ I was actually quite excited about school and was ready for school tomorrow but .. Let's me elaborate on it. Firstly, the timetable is out and JamieChua is my class' Maths teacher, till now i still wonder, why must we change Maths teacher? Isn't NgWeeNghee good to teach us? Maybe, perhaps, i don't know. Next, our school reporting time is 7.20am this year. I find it dumb and at the same time, quite smart. Dumb cause more students will be late for school, so are they going to y'know increase the punishments or something? At the same time, smart cause they force students to wake up early and increased our school time by that seven minutes. And also, the school killed our sleeping time. Students will continue to complain that they don't have enough sleep when they are caught sleeping and lying on the table.! So let me continue, but still i'm ready for school. Going to face any new challenge that people bring up! I'm READY! Bring it on people, bring it on! Anyways, i didn't sleep at all, i just couldn't fall asleep so i have decided to sleep later at night till tomorrow morning at 5.30am! So yeahs, Mummy bought me supper and breakfast today! After such a long time, she bought meals for me. And yes, i have to get my SOCKS ready for tomorrow. LALALA! C:

A new year, a new start, a new beginning

2012-01-01T11:59:00.004+08:00

Hey guys, Twenty Eleven is over, so i'm here to make my resolutions for this new year Twenty Twelve, here goes ;

Gain more kg(s)
Get my body into shape
Train up stamina for Southzone and get into Second round with my girls'
Achieve good results for all test, exams and of course Os'
Study really hard
Lead a healthy and awesome life
Cut down on spending so much money, got to save up
No last minute stuff, decisions and definitely studying
Family to be like before, like in the past
Create more memorable, awesome and beautiful memories, be it with who
Kept up to my promise(s)
Concentrate more in class

New Years' Eve, C:

2011-12-31T23:59:00.012+08:00

Hey humans.! Last night wasn't pleasant at all, i totally can't sleep and kind of expect myself to fall asleep at 11pm sharp as my body system says so but somehow i only could fall asleep at 3plus in the morning, Pathetic much, pathetic me.. PATHETIC!! Oh, it's New Year's Eve today! I just came home from awesome celebration with my Excos', some of them only. :/ My apologise to Eunice and others for not turning up for steamboat. Sorry much, :/ So my day went like this, Elson and Fangdi came up to my house and waited for me to be ready to head out. Met Ronald and Alwin at CitySquare and headed to have brunch at Kopitiam. Didn't have much appetite, so only had a bowl of Laska with Mountain Dew! :x Okay, Elson is always there to remind me that Mountain Dew cause miscarriage! Gosh! All the time, way too long winded!! Sometimes, he even give me the killer stare!. Ohyes, i saw Samson and his friend, looking really good. After we had our brunch, we head to play a round of pool and headed to Bowling. Shenghong came with bruises, hopefully he take much care! Remember Egg-y?! HAHA!, down to Marina Square's pool and Alwin left for work. Played a couple of rounds of pool then Shenghong and i headed for some arcade game we like! Oh, we saw Elton and co. too! They look so damn bored! Back to pool and soon, Fangdi left. Dinner with Ronald, Elson and Shenghong at Yoshinoya, pretty nice meal. Calvin came after we finished our meal and we walked our way to Marina Bay Sands. There's so many humans roaming around.! Slacked here and there and soon, sent Ronald to the traffic light and he went home sweet home. Leaving Elson, Shenghong, Calvin and me behind slacking and waiting for the time to fly pass quickly! We made it through though! Anyways, this years' end fireworks are really awesome i would say. Managed to video down the whole process, awesome shyt! (Y) Took bus home and the bus stop was totally packed with humans from all countries. Human traffic! Should have listened to Elson and don't be so lazy to walk home. Regret much, first regret of 2012, how awesome!! Urgh, i feel so disgusted now. Howhowhow?! Don't ask what happened.. So yeahs, today is the last day of Twenty Eleven and somehow also a start of 2012, many happened. Good and bad, i would say. The next few things i'm going to say it's a recap of this year, so if you guys want to leave, better leave my blog now.! Hee.! Don't regret next! Not forgetting me, already have my Weebly updated. Photos for December'31 are up too, just a few of them. Visit yeahs?, http://f-adedsmiles.weebly.com/!

It has been a really great year which was filled with ups and downs. Every years has its' joys and down hills. All of us must accept every little things that god gave us. People left, people enter, test given and all sorts of stuff. Our life is somehow arranged by God, got to learn to accept everything, be it good or bad. With every bad, a good is attached with it.! Last years' today, i went to Sentosa with my Clique. It was quite a number of fun playing with sands and yes, 'breakfast' at Boonkeng's Macs with them and also, Eugene! Also in January, celebrated Farhan's birthday with Euncie and Velan. Headed back to school when it reopens with a super busy schedule with all those councillors' stuff, trainings (Netball & Tchoukball) and not forgetting the camps here and there. I would say this year's SecOne Orientation Camp was quite a fun one with all those small kids and my Excos'. Ohyes, we had our personal grooming in January with all those make-ups and all, disgusting to me though but Breeks was nice on the last day of our personal grooming course. The graduating classes had our milestone walk too, i find it kind of meaningful. (Y) During February, Ryantan made two promises to me, one: to be happy with our life no matter how hard life is and two: don't drink too much alcohol, i seriously wonder if he still remembers this! :x Kind of special for this year's new year, went over to Eunice's, Yangjie's and Jeff's house! I won't forget that particular Valentines' and Friendship day with my committee for fund-rising, we sold roses but it wasn't enough for all to buy. We had the last laugh! Went to some Bodynits' industry also and i remembered that a sport bra needs twenty seven processes to be made. Awesome right? It's not easy though. Ohyes, on 23rdFebruary, Eunice wants me to be afraid of her and yeah, she slammed the table, i think she still remembers this, :x March arrived soon when February left!, Ronald said that he's a Wangbadan during one of the mother tongue lesson we had in March! That month, Jason never fails to sing in high pitch early in the morning to irritating and annoy us. :/ oh, went Sentosa with a group of awesome people that month and out school had the cross country day in that month too. Cross country day was one of the most memorable day i have with Charlene, Eunice and Jean, Camwhoring, slacking and all. I would never forget that lovely day my netballers gave to us, Seniors of batch 1995, gifts that are filled with extra toppings of loves! Super sweet girls i have! Also, this is also the month where MrKwok left the school. Our school had a farewell party for him and he nearly tears! 13th, a day with sweetness at Eunice's chalet with all those awesome people. I know i gave her a really belated birthday present by me this year, super belated. Sorry much, :/ Caught the movie Big Mommas ; like father like son this month with a big large group. The first time i went to flea was with Charlene and Eunice at Clarke Quay on the 26th! And on the 30th, Devon asked Fangdi for stead, what the hell! It's kind of a joke and it's hell funny. Just imagine.

Next in April, second time to flea was with Eunice and Jean on the 2nd! We went to catch the movie Hop too. I stepped down this month too, sat in the Parade Square on the 6th, felt so different! Daddy bought a new Tv on 7th and he was really happy. ohoh, International day falls on this month too. Went Ktv with Jean, Norman, Jekkeat and Xiongjie and also pool session, Epic games.! The 14th, my class took our class photo! Did CIP in this month too, pool was after that CIP project. Headed down with Eunice and Farhan to cheer Velan up as he was really sad. On Sport day, Olympus took the Champion this year, awesome much! After which, went Nex's Ktv and Ajisen with Charlene, Eunice and Jean, all three of them bought slipper at Cotton On! In this month, we also had an advance birthday party for Chiweng and Danial at Sentosa. This month had one jokiest day too, remembering Chongkai saying that he thought that TanChinPoh is TanTeckTian and LeeHsienLong is GohChokTong's son.! Failure, this made me laugh quite awhile. Maymaymay!, Charlene's sweet sixteen birthday and she was like a boss wearing green and all of us blue! Jean, Eunice, Charlene, Jiamin and i had our girls' day out to Kbox and buffet at Yuki Yaki! A great Saturday with kids doing CIP at Hougang and also a great camwhoring day with Jean, Eunice and Charlene. On my brother, George's birthday, Charlene and Jean tagged along for some BBQ and more.! A creepy night at EastCoastPark, toning with Charlene, Jean and Jekkeat!! I also remember, me having a twins' day out with Charlene at Kovan eating super spicy Prawn noodles and nice cooling desserts. Ohyes, had some outing called the 'Triiple date' with some awesome people too, Jekkeat and i felt kind of awkward! Then in June, went out with Jean and her Junkos' mates to catch the movie Dlyan Dog. A really low Kbox session at Hougang with my girls and just nice, Councillor camp falls on that day. Ohya, i had this ShowLuo's favourite hunting day with Jekkeat, Jean, Norman and Charlene, had Kbox and Ajisen also. Not forgetting, Sentosa with Charlene, Jean, Norman, Jekkeat and Redmond. And on Pinkdot day, Charlene and i went for dessert hunting at Clarke Quay, Somerset and after meeting Jean, we went to Boonkeng for more desserts. Felt really weird to wear pink on that day, so weird. Of course on JerrySeah's birthday, the committee celebrated with him. The committee gave him a Potato cake for his birthday as a fake cake.! He looked stunned but when the real Icing room cake was out, he was super duper happy.

July, nothing more exciting than Mission Foods World Netball Championships, Jean and i were really high and in with all those Netball stuffs. Slacking at Kallang was not a bad choice too, got to know some new faces in Kallang, great people! (Y) Night cycling with Ronald, Jiamin, Andy, Fabian, Chiale and Erjin was pretty fun on random Friday nights! To August, night cycling, chalet with those awesome Kallang people. On Ahlu's birthday, went out to Cineleisure to celebrate for him, he looked quite happy. Went for quite a number of night study and was encouraged to play Captain ball with the others so i actually started to play on the 22nd. Soon, Captain ball and night study became something i do every time i go for night study. Finally we are talking about September!, on Andy's birthday, went out to have lunch and celebrated Andy's birthday together at Hougang with Charlene, Eunice, Chiweng, Sunthar and Yeetze. My birthday was awesome i would say, thanks to Eunice, Charlene, Jean, Jiamin, Andy, Chiweng, Sunthar, Yeetze, Marcus, Chongkai, Enhai, Tekchuat, Fabian and Ronald. Went studying with Enhai at his place's Macs as he promised to study with me.! I also caught the movie Johnny English Reborn with Eunice, Charlene, Chiweng, Andy and Sunthar. I remembered me heading for night study every now and then.

October next, study till brain was bursting till 10th, it was the day my last paper ended as i was pretty bored that day i went Sentosa with Charlene. Explored everywhere we could walked and she have got not patience for Origami. :/ Had a day out with Charlene and Eunice to Kbox and then to Pizzahut, what a dress day! Went back to school for different kind of activities and did enjoyed myself pretty much! On the BBQ day at EastCoastPark, we took 133! End up, we dropped at Kallang and took another bus. BBQ was quite a fun one with Engkiat, Sunthar, Teckhuat, Shenghong, Chiweng, Chongkai, Leo, Charlene, Eunice and Andy. We had pooling and breakfast too! Awesome much, (Y) Prawning the next day with Charlene, Aravin, Darren and Weijian and Punggol. I caught the biggest prawn, hee~ EastCoastPark with Charlene, Enhai, Rahmat and Darren on 26th! Caught some robot movie, i think it's called Real steel with Charlene, Aravin, Enhai and Shan at Suntec City, Oldtown for lunch and school for Star Gazing and games with Zhonglin and those 5ns' students in the canteen. Lepaking at Sengkang with Charlene, Engkiat and Weijian was one of the good memories too! Not forgetting Charlene's MAMAA! Before Charlene flew off to Thailand, i treat her and Eunice Hokkien Mee from Whampoa and Sugarcane drinks! Delicious, (Y)! Just in November, started to go morning jogs with Eunice and Chiweng! 3rd, finished playing Captain ball, chatted and slacked in school with Eunice and Enhai till we forgotten about our time and we were locked up inside. No choice but i climb out of the school for KFC dinner! HAHA! Accompanied Eunice to meet her blog shop owner on the last day when we had our Captain ball game on the 4th! On this random day, went to Queenstown / Queensway and Pasir Ris with Sunthar to actually but things and explore Pasir Ris! I bought a Netball on that day!! On the 9th, went Sentosa with Sunthar, Teckhuat and Yilin, had pretty much fun. Then there's this particular day, went down for supervision with Enhai and JerrySeah at ToaPayoh while the councillors do their job in painting and cleaning up centers. Went shopping with Eunice before Graduation Night too, and she also somehow completed her work! The next day, accompanied Priscilla to Nex to find her dress. Dinner with my Excos' at Just Acia, together with Hongtat and Lester, then walked around to find Fangdi's 4.5 inch heels on the 16th. The next day, we had our Graduation Night! Went prawning with Sunthar and Shenghong after 3days of rest from Gradnight, had Popeyes for dinner. Celebrated Benny's 16 birthday with Ain, Sunthar, Elson, Huanjing, Weihao and Chunren at Sentosa, we had a great sand fight! 27th, Charlene came back from Thailand, went to fetch her with Chiweng and Andy! Caught Puss in boots with Sunthar, Elson and Weihao the next day! And the next next day, caught Already Famous with Enhai at Cathay! A basketball day in December with Dhurga, Salma, Sunthar, Elson, Weihao and Chunren on the 2nd. Next day, went out with Jiahui and the next with Weilun to catch You're the apple of my eye! Went cycling with Charlene, Sufyan, Andy, Sunthar, Rahmat, Darren, Enhai and Shenghong on a Thursday and headed down to catch some Netball Nation Cup games with Shenghong. I went to catch the finals with Rongrong, Jean, Weilun and Shenghong also. Superb nice! (Y) This year Singapore is 2nd for that game play! Ohyes, Universal Studio with those awesome people on the 15th and i really do enjoyed. Celebrated Huanjing's 16 birthday 2-3days after his birthday and the next day was Velan's chalet. Christmas Eve was quite a day, to Jerry's house, my Cousin's house and to Marina Square to countdown for Christmas! Went to be a skinny Santa on Christmas day and it was quite successful! The next day, i went out to Bugis with my girls, together with Elson and Shenghong. AND ALSO NEW YEARS' EVE which is today!!

Group photos,

'One, Letting go of him was the choice i have made these few months. Yes, i have failed a couple of times before but i have never regret knowing him. He still brights up my life with all sorts of way, all sorts of ways he could actually think of. Falling for him for such a long time is something which i don't expect from myself. I thought moving on is easy, but i was totally wrong.. Yesterday, walking along the streets of those Terrance house, the balcony used to be the place i see moon and stars while chatting with him in the late nights in the past. We used to compare the amount of stars we saw and chat our hearts out. Good and bad. The day he left was the day tears flow really much and uncontrollably. Thinking back, i was kind of silly but which girl don't cry, especially for someone who meant so much to them and worst still, they left after so much memories were given!. I made a promise not to cry since that day but still yesterday night was somehow too sudden. Lying on my bed, thinking, reflecting and he, came into my mind. It's okay, i guess, it's over. No point thinking back at times, but still it's a kind of awesome memories when i'm with him. Well, it's time to move on for another adventure of life now. I wish him best with his new girl, last long SEXYASS! He always say that he is sexy so yeahs, SEXYASS! I also wish him best for his results coming up in Jan! <:

'Two, Another human asked me if i regret knowing him, i've told him, nope. I wouldn't regret knowing anyone, including him, cause he actually bright up part of my life! I had a chance to know him, i wouldn't regret, not in the past, not now, not in the future. I do know, things happened between us, hurts were given. It hurts but we somehow overcome it. Somehow, i don't know how but yes.! We managed to talk to each other again, good uh! I miss all those craziness, those nonsense, those captain ball plays, everything we had done together. He never fail to remind me to have early nights, those wishes and lots more. He gave me really precious memories, really worth much! We got closer this year too, amazingly.! In life, there's up hill and down hill, more of downs than ups but we got to get used to it somehow, someday. He is a super awesome human i've known i think a year ago but not close, somehow got closer this year, could say that he is a great listener. I'm supposed to cheer him up, but end up he was the one who actually cheered me up even more than i do. At times, when i felt really bad, he cheered me up. Although i don't cheer him up as much as he does, i won't forget this cute awesome friend i had. Different people have different unique way to express themselves and he's different too, just like all of you. Ohyes, i hope he will just smile a little more, i don't like it when he bottled things up, open up my dear. Smile more, awesome human! Things will be over, work hard next year. {:

'Three, dedications for my lovelies!;
For Charlene and Eunice, i know we drifted and do know that we do want things to be like in the past. I'm sorry to cause us drift. We may have drifted but still, i want to thank both of you for being with me, through all thick and thin. You guys have been with me when i tears, when i vexed about certain stuff, when i'm happy and all. It's nice to have you all together!! The road that we walked through ain't really very stable but we have made it. Our challenge for next year will arrive just a few blinks so let's study hard and gambatte together next year. I'm sure we will get back really close with the nest year's bonding. Sorry to make us drift and thanks for all those wonderful and super awesome memories. When Os' end, we shall party hard! Do guide me through studies! Iloveyou both of you! ♥♥♥

For Jean, we drifted because of some issues too yeah. Well, bear in mind that i never want to lose you as a friend. Thing might happen and hurts might be given but nope, i don't want to lose you. I certainly miss going out, hanging out and playing sports with you, of course slacking also. You are having Os' next year as well, so let's gambatte and study hard together! Study hard kay, and Southzone is waiting for us! Hopefully we can grant our wishes this year. Let's give our best shot, also, thanks for walking through thick and thin with me for 22months. Iloveyou! ♥♥♥

As for Sunthar, don't keep on playing and do study hard for next year. I know, some things might happen and luck might not be on your side, but don't you worry. Just sit back and study hard for next year. Thanks for giving me such an awesome memories towards the end of Twenty Eleven. Great awesome memories, thanks for cheering me at times and planning countless outings over and over again. And shyt you for Mission Impossible movie. Dislike much, HAHA! anyways, i'm glad that you have entered my life. Work hard next year, ♥

Next up for Shenghong, don't think too much kay. I do know things ain't doing it right. Let it go, i know it's easily said and hard to be done. She's gone and you can't do anything. At times when you feel sad, you are definitely forgiven. It's Eleven years of those, it's okay that you will feel sad. At times, do cry it out if you feel like it. My advice to you, move on, get over it. And don't think so much, we will meet up next year. No scare kay! Ohyes, thanks for those memories, ♥

And Elson, don't have to always remind me that Mountain Dew cause miscarriage, i know, i know. HAHA!, thanks for always calling me up, giving me calls and all. You know what it is.! Do takecare of yourself and don't be so weak! Stop being so racist too! Cheena! I enjoy working with you and hanging out with you. You are someone who i really trust!. When you have to let it go, di it Elson. Don't doubt. Well, no worries, we will hang out too. Takecare and thanks, ♥

Not forgetting Weijian, thanks for being such an awesome human. I know, let's just leave the past alone. Things improved a little i think. From my point of view it did. Nope, i ain't going to let you off as a friend. You're an awesome friend. At times, you really need to smile a little more. Every smile worth pretty much. You taught me, you taught me how to move on so you need to do it too. If not, what's the point of teaching me? Right? You taught me quite a number of things for that i thank you. Also, i thank you for being such an awesome one. Xiexie, and gambatte next year! Jiayou! Think positively!! ♥♥

I want you to stay,

2011-12-30T20:50:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to Meowmeow, TanJekkeat! ♥♥♥ Supposed to have buffet today, but kind of fail cause he's busy. Also, supposed to head down to look for Sunthar, Teckhuat, Shenghong, Huangjing, etcetc to play pool together but stayed at home as mummy asked me to. :/ I managed to clear up all my stuff on the table, and it look so neat now!! ♥ End up, headed to Vivocity and i saw Pornsak! He was filming or something like that. Anyways, i have gotten my school shoe from Everlast, kind of like the colour, White with Green strips. (Y) Headed home and ate dinner by myself again. Like the usual. Kind of used to it, shall blog more tomorrow.! Bye world! C:

It's better to know and be disappointed than to never know and always wonder.!

2011-12-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hey earthlings!! It's kind of a great day for me outside with those asses. Ohya, Elson is sick, hope he recover soon! Anyways, went to collect pay at Clarke Quay in the afternoon and head down to Dhoby Just Acia to have lunch with Sunthar, Ahbee, Weihao, Benny and Chunren. After lunch, went to find cousins for pool at Hougang. Joke around like some fools, play around like some retard and walk around aimlessly like some lost kid. We didn't know where to head to after pool so we started roaming around in the mall like some weird people.! Soon, they got to head back home for dinner so i went to City Square Malls' Popular to get some school stuff. I was shocked when i went to pay up, $55.55! Gees, but kind of happy, i got everything i need for school and yes, i'm ready for school once i get my school shoes!. Bought bufferly bun for myself as i didn't know what to eat for dinner and since i'm eating it alone. Well, headed down to Eunice's house and she gave me my Christmas gift from Charlene and her. How sweet~ Thanks girls, ♥♥! Headed home and started to clear all my stuff and i'm not doneeeee! C:

Memory lane~

2011-12-27T22:17:00.001+08:00

Hmm, i dared someone for a long long long long post, should i should too right? Pretty proud of myself, to come up with really beautiful stuff. Like that awesome human, i like One Direction tooo~~~~ They are super cool! But nope, i'm not as obsessed as him! So yeah, i stayed at home the whole day! I spent my day really well, i did my memory lane! HAHA!, just for my photos! Ohwell, it's not done yet but i will try to finish up before school reopens. Got so much to do before school reopens! Got to head down to the Popular to get stationary done before school starts, school shoes too! Ohyes, tomorrow our classes for Sec5 will be out, it's 28th!, i wonder if there's a need to go to school tomorrow. Meeting up with those asses tomorrow again to head to Clarke Quay! Anyways, i think i'm meeting my cousins tomorrow for Pooling too! *excited* Hee, so my day was awesome i guess, for today. Chatted with awesome human on facebook and i think he should smile moreeeee~~ Photos are updated at my Memory lane! Enjoy! C:

Lovely!,

2011-12-26T23:59:00.001+08:00

Ohyes, i headed out for lunch with Sunthar, Elson, Ahbee and Huanjing. Next, down to Bugis together with Elson and Ahbee to meet up with my lovely girls, Raquel and Peiyun! I would say it's awesome to hang around with them, especially those fantastic talks in Frolick! I saw Bevin working at Frolick, she was pretty in her uniform! Also, saw Hsiaochong at Ajisen working, looking great in his uniform too! Dinner with Ahbee and Elson at Plaza Sing's Carl.Jr! Delicious! Ahbee and i were somehow fail at lemon tea! Hee, EPIC moments.! Walked around and bought two books, super likes!! (Y) Headed back to Boonkeng, together with the both asses to have supper at Choices with Jason and Xiudong. C:

Christmas,

2011-12-25T23:59:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Jesus! Merry Christmas everyone! Lovely humans on earth, Angels in the heaven and Devils and demons in hell! Ohoh, i'm just kidding, just Merry Christmas people! HAH, my day is quite great today also, just like yesterday. I'm a skinny Santa today! Did all the Christmas cards up this afternoon and delivered it out at night. Punggol for Charlene, Sengkang for Weijian, Farrerpark for Jean, McNair for Jiahui, St.George's for Eunice, Chiweng, Ahbee, Sunthar, Elson and Jekkeat! Some even rejected me today, sad.. Ohwell, hopefully it looks okay. I'm not born to be someone who is creative so yeah.! Anyways, i hope they like it. Okay, bye for now! C:

Eve,

2011-12-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

Christmas Eve!, it's kind of a wonderful day. Lunch at Jerry's house, filled with all our laughter as the tveee programme is super funny! Nice pizza and super spicy chickens at Jerry's house, thanks MrSeah! <: Next, took Mrt with Marcus and Wanning but i went to my Cousin's house at Bishan. Bought lollipops at Fair price but it doesn't taste as nice at Strawberry with milk one. Walked my way like a boss to my cousin's house and found only one of my cousin at home, Eurich! After which came two younger cousin, Hongjie and Qiaohao. This year's Christmas isn't a good one, it's not warm anymore.. Kind of disappointed this year, i would say. Whatever it is, my cousin kept me really entertained with UNO Stacko! 10-03, he lost! HAHA!, off to find Charlene, Eunice, Enhai, Darren, Junwei and Andy at Cityhall. Waited for more than half an hour at Bishan before the train starts moving! On my way to Cityhall, i saw this group of family who have displayed a new fashion sense, socks with slipper, awesome family!! Anyways, sorry people for making you guys wait for me. Walked out way to some corner in Marina and Countdown. Chatted awhile and headed back to the Mrt station. Junwei and i was high on i don't know what, we kept saying Merry Christmas to strangers. Different kind of humans gave different expression! There are friendly, kind, fierce, etcetc! Ohya, on the train back to Boonkeng, there's this kid with a weird smile, he kept on staring at me! Omgees!! :/ He alighted at Boonkeng so Junwei, Andy and i decided to alight at Potong Pasir. Headed out and we saw Macs, supper time! AHAH!, i couldn't finish my food. On the way back home while walking, we exercise our mouth, awwwww, creepy stuff! Too scare to go home, so Junwei and Andy came up to my house and the electric were off! Scary much! Gees!!! I hope this kind of thing won't happen again! God bless. C:

No boxes?! C:

2011-12-23T23:45:00.007+08:00

Day out with Charlene today to get Log cake for Christmas Eve at Jerry's house tomorrow. End up, Charlene was pissed, crazy and nearly want to break down! Met her at Serangoon MRT and i thought i was late, she was later. While waiting for her, some blogshop owner mistook me as their customer just because i'm wearing a flag shirt!. Pizza hut for lunch and we were served by Eunice. Like what Charlene said, she's cute!! Up to Popular and gotten some coloured papers. Over to Fairprice and we can't find cake boxes for Charlene's cheese cake! Next, to Isetan, cannot find either! End up, kind of gave up and decided to go down to Boonkeng. On the way, we went to Four Leaf to get the Log Cake for tomorrow. Down to Boonkeng, walked down to SKP and the shop was closed. Charlene is damn sad! :/ Walked to print some photos at the noisy uncle's shop. Then, headed to get plastic containers!. No choice uh! Back to collect photos and headed to meet Eunice at her tuition center. Passed her the cake and home sweet home! C:

I guess, we living our own life is better. I don't want to have this feeling all the time..

Yes, everyone is afraid of being rejected but everyone have been rejected before. It's a nice video up above, do enjoy! C:

Mixed feeling attached,

2011-12-22T23:10:00.001+08:00

At first, i didn't plan to head out as i haven't really settle my own problems. Well, end up i went out because i never want to stay at home to think and of course, i haven't been seeing my girls and Velan for quite awhile. So yeah, heading out to East Coast to find Eunice and Charlene at Velan's chalet! It was quite fail but i enjoy how they communicate with each other while bbq-ing. Super jokers! (Y) Had little little conversations with Eunice, as well as Charlene, kind of great. More photos below! Enjoy. Ohyes, had supper with Sunthar and Ahbee, pretty full now. C:

Huanjing's belated birthday celebration!

2011-12-21T23:11:00.001+08:00

As expected, was super duper late today.. Met up with Huanjing, Sunthar, Dhurga, Salma, Israt, Benedict, Junboon, Prema, Ahbee and Prema's brother -Theva! Just acia for lunch, pool after eating and watched Mission Impossible : Ghost Protocol. I fell asleep!! AHAH!, woke up after the movie and headed to Pizza hut with Sunthar, Ahbee, Junboon and Huanjing. Ohwell, walked around after eating and home sweet home. Ohyes, we played some arcade! Freaking funny. C:

I walked away with the bitterness in me, i shouldn't have walked away. I wouldn't want to walk away like this. So me, scolding you was a mistaken? Wanting to teach you to be someone better also mistake? I don't know what to do, i really don't know. I felt it, i really felt it, That's also way i'm tearing while blogging.. Sorry, i shouldn't have cared, i shouldn't have talk about it, i shouldn't have response to that call from mum. It's all my fault, why am i so fail? I'm just useless kay.. Screw all this, i shouldn't have even response so that i won't talk about it, and therefore i won't say those words.. I know.. Sorry, very sorry. I shouldn't have help you settle your case with people who cause problem to you. I shouldn't have care. I'm very sorry, but now i'm dead and over you. Since guailan is something you love so much, i wish you best when you get out. Please takecare..

Some thoughts in me, running wild.

2011-12-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

Yes, i have decided that i should really give it a try in Sec5. Well, i know i'm able to study and not, having the capability of getting lousy results. Teachers told me, i can study but i'm just too playful. I have no idea how to make myself study and concentrate on what i'm studying. I need someone to make me understand the importance of studies and not only that, also i want to get down is books and not playing. I hope by making this decision, i won't regret. Partly was to keep up with my promise i have made with Jean, Rongrong, Norman and Y'know. Many told me, i can do this, i will do this, i must do this. Seriously, me myself don't even know if i can cope or not. I know i have got to chose something i'm comfortable with but i think i need to pick up this challenge!

Christmas is in five days time, i haven't got any presents, was thinking if i should give it this year.. What i really want for Christmas is a Family who cares for me. Staying at home almost everyday with grandparents, parents and my brothers. I know it's impossible now.. Things changed ever since things happened. I'm always jealous of people having great and happy family. Wonderful and awesome too! I mean why life is so unfair? Some people don't even cherish their own family and yet they are so blessed! They grumble about their family and still, they have such an awesome parent, sibling and cousins. All i ever wanted for Christmas isn't a boyfriend, isn't him, isn't having lots of present, it's just a family i used to have in the past. I do know, life is filled with both sides, good and bad but mine have been going down ever since things happened for the very first time. I know i won't be able to hang on to this for long.

I broke down yesterday night with all those chats with Weijian in facebook.I know i shouldn't be tearing, i know i shouldn't be feeling sad cause i have done my best and of course, i know i shouldn't be faking a smile all the time. Well, i couldn't help it, like seriously. At least i'm really proud of walking out of the school hall and not forgetting the school gate smiling with a super bright smile. Also, i know i'm not supposed to be like this, i'm not supposed to tears but Charlene ever told me, it's okay to tears at times. I'm someone who would rather let others be happy than myself. If they are happy, i am. I'm silly, ain't i? I learnt by faking a smile won't let me be any happier but still i fake that out. I have been living in a dreamland(?), i don't know. And the only place i could vent it out is by playing sports or even blog. It's always on the Internet. I find it easier and better this way too. Don't you think so? C:

It's a 19!

2011-12-19T20:33:00.000+08:00

It's really close, really. It's a 19, sec5 or ITE, that's the question that have been stucked in my head.. Some asked me to go back for Sec5, some asked me to direct myself to ITE. I mean i don't know what choice should i do, somehow i think i have made the wrong choice. I feel myself pretty useless, y'know? I mean i work super doubly hard for Ns' and yet, my results shows that i haven't work hard enough, and i need to work even harder. Got to really say, i'm proud of myself. I walked out of the hall smiling with a totally bright smile, feeling really bad inside. Maybe i shouldn't fret over it anymore, i just have to fret over the decision i'm going to make. That's all, i'm off, bye! C:

Results is later,

2011-12-19T03:29:00.002+08:00

Okay, i'm getting my results later and am feeling kind of scare and kind of a mixed feeling too. Meeting up with those awesome humans later before collecting results to have an awesome breakfast. Ohwell, expect myself to get 22 points but all i want to get is below 19 points. Somehow i know i ain't going to make it, i do know where i stand. I know i shouldn't be saying this to myself or rather i shouldn't be making myself so demoralised but i've no choice. I'm ain't supposed to talk to Mum if i don't achieve 15 points. How?, i don't want to be unable to talk to mum, i know she have high expectation of me, i can't blame her, she's my mum but what if i can't do it? 15 points leyy! Andand, i know i should be sleeping now, but i can't. If i'm unable to head back for Sec five, many will be disappointed. Sigh.. Kbye! C:

Universal studio.!

2011-12-15T21:44:00.003+08:00

I'm back from a long day at Universal Studio!, had awesome fun! <: Rise and shine super early in the morning and met Sunthar under his block at 8.30am, he look excited. (Y) Hee, met Shenghong and Ronald at Boonkeng mrt station and headed off to Macs for breakfast. Saw Aravin and friends working hard at Macs!! Soon, Calvin came. Mrt-ed down to Harbourfront to met Teckhuat and off to Universal studio! The first familiar face i saw was JAEYEOB at the entrance lane with his friends! Woah, i like his green-white strips jacket! Super nice. AHAHA, we started off taking photos and enjoying the craziness there. Frankenstein scared me the moment we started walking down the lane of Hollywood. Superb scary, had a great laugh though. Off to New York to catch the awesome attraction ; Lights, Camera, Action and i saw Jaeyeob and friends again! It was an awesome experience inside with major hurricane and all and the heat of the fire is totally awesome! (Y) Placed all out stuff in the locker and we carried on with Ahbee's plan. Went to Ancient Egypt for our very first ride ; Revenge of the Mummy was totally awesome, the feeling of being pulled back and all. Not forgetting the cold wind and the scary noises. Teckhuat tried to scare me by grabbing me neck and end up, Ahbee was shocked! His facial expression was super funny, super shocked.! When we're out, Ronald was looked totally stunned, his face was OHMYGODDDD! Guess he was scare! Anyways, we moved on to Sci-Fi City to for Battlestar Galactica's ride. First was the Human and it was super fun, like roller coaster. Super awesome feeling but felt a little dizzy when i came down. The most awesome thing is to be dropped from 14-storeys high, fantastic.! HAHA, next was Cylon and Ronald was feeling too awful to get his ass up. Ahbee told me that Human was scarier so i believed him and went up with the rest while Ronald wait downstairs. Sat comfortably beside Ahbee when it's our turn and for the first and last time, i'm going for that ride. Ohmyfreakingod, it's an awesome ride but it's too, too scary! Was feeling super terrible and breathing super difficulty when i came down from the sit. Ahbee lied to me, and he was super guilty. Forgiven him though, it's not his fault, he just don't want us to be scare, y'know! Sunthar, Teckhuat, Ahbee and Calvin decided to play Revenge of the Mummy again so Ronald and i waited outside. Was feeling extremely terrible and i felt very much like vomiting at that point of time. When they came down, i have yet to recover so decided not to go for Transformer the ride : The Ultimate 3D Battle. Ronald was afraid so he didn't want to go up. Went walking around with Ronald and we spotted King Julien's Beach Party-Go-Around at Madagascar, basically it's called a Merry-Go-Round, it was slow but it brought back my childhood memories where daddy and mummy was around. Enjoyable but dizzy! It took quite some time, so Ronald and i thought by then Sunthar and the others will be out so we actually headed back. We saw The Joker, he look like some clown and i was scare. It's CLOWN?!?!?! Eew!, i don't like. Headed to the locker and we forgot that we didn't have any money on so walked back to meet the others first. Saw the Colourful Chameleon hissing at people who walked pass but at least he doesn't scare people. Sat outside by the road with Ronald while waiting for the others to come out from the Transformer ride. Finally when they are out, head back to the locker and i forgot what we saw, funny guy though. Had lunch at Mel's Drive-In, super delicious. Went walking down Madagascar, went for A Crate Adventure, everything was so real. Even the explosion, awesome much! Went over to Far Far Away to catch Shrek 4-D Adventure, saved Fiona again. Funny part was when the spiders are out, all of us jumped up. After the show ended, we headed to The Lost World to catch WaterWorld, awesome show, cheers, splashes and noises but the shots by those guns were too loud and my ears hurts pretty much. Got a phone call from Zhonglin and things happened. Well, as soon as it's settled, Shenghong, Sunthar and Teckhuat head off to play the other rides while Ronald, Calvin and me just walk around and slack! From shops to shops, places to places, we just walked around like some lost humans but we ain't lost. Ronald bought a Gingerbread man's head!. As we head our way down, we saw Faggotking, a Frog ; Ronald's king! Next, we headed off to the Jurassic Park, Ronald ad Calvin played Dino-Soarin. Nothing much there though and the time files super fast. Back to Ancient Egypt for the Treasure Hunters' ride. Sat behind like a boss while Ronald and Calvin sat in front to drive. Abit lame uh, but still, it's okay! Sat on the number 0008 car. HAHA!, slacked awhile and was bored. Back to play Merry-Go-Round again like a kid. Slacked with Calvin and Ronald, headed home when my phone rang. Goddamn! Anyways, i enjoyed my day and it was a indeed awesome one! Played so much all the way to 8plus at night. My heart was at the tip of my mouth when i rode on the most scariest ride, Cylon! Scared the hell out of me!! Saw primary school friends too, it's been so long since i saw them. and ohya, a friend i knew from Netball! OMFG!, all i could say is, i had super lots of fun. Alright, shall blog next time. BYE! C:

How i hope it's a dream! C:

2011-12-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

Only managed to sleep for just nice an hour or so and i'm up in the morning at 5plus. Met up with Hannah and we went for a run, not forgetting some netball drills. We were dying, it's been really long since we actually exercise so we were all dying, totally exhausted! Went to kallang's market to have breakfast and some drinks. Took bus back to Boonkeng and slowly take my time to walk back home. As soon as i reached home, i was bored and had nothing much to do. Prepared and off to meet Sunthar, Elson, Chunren, Shenghong and Weihao to go down to Clarke Quay to collect pay. After collecting pay, head down to Marina Square to have lunch at Just Acia. Next, we decided to catch 'New Years' Eve', the movie slot was at 4plus so we headed to play pool. When it's time, we went in to catch the movie. Awesome movie!!. 4.5/5, (Y)! Home early for dinner, but it was a disappointment.. Sigh! Anyways, played game with SEXY till early morning as i couldn't sleep, had fun! C:

Just a few more days.

2011-12-13T07:39:00.000+08:00

Chen Hui Fen, 2011' Singapore Star player! (Goal Attack) C:

Hey readers, i'm back with a more proper post and a more longer one, i hope. Sorry for the laziness for using computer these days, no feel to update my blog also. So yeah, my week(s) or rather days have spent well slacking and doing nonsense with Sunthar, Elson, Shenghong, Jason, Ronald and Fabian. Ha, kidding kidding. Oh, i had supper when them most of the nights at 11plus, super awesome! Nobody have been asking me out so i actually planned a super busy schedule for myself. Anyways, Nlevel results are coming out soon! Are you nervous? For me, i don't really feel anything. I know deep down, i know myself that i will eventually screw up all my subjects and what's more?, i don't think i will going back to secondary school. I mean i don't have anymore faith in myself, no more confidence too. I do know where i would stand. I don't have good results like some people, i can't study independently but really appreciate Hannah and Zhonglin who stood by me and guide me along through the whole Nlevel months. Those days were really tough, i was forced really hard to do things i really don't want, i don't like. Thinking back, i made it, i made it through those hard days where Hannah and of course Zhonglin who would really stress me up like some parent of mine. Not forgetting, jellybeans that accompanied me for studies to keep me awake. Good days, good days. Andand, watched Netball Nation Cup for the past two to three days, awesome fights from Singapore, Fiji, Malaysia, Namibia, Sri Lanka and of course Papua New Guinea. Not forgetting our star players for this year, Fiji: Unaisi Kubunameca, Singapore: Chen Huifen, Malaysia: Nur Salfarina Muhammed Amin, Namibia: Anna Kasper, Sri Lanka: JAVP Jayasooriya and Papua New Guinea: Lua Rikis!! Awesome players! One of the best NationCup i have watched since Secondary one. Okay, enough of Netball if not, those who don't like Netball will eventually fall asleep after reading those. Okay, shall blog next time. Bye! C:

I made myself believe,

2011-12-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

Hey readers, still there? Recently, so much happened. I mean, i find things different, way too different now. Anyways, i went to catch the finals of this year's Netball Nation Cup yesterday with Jean, Rongrong, Weilun and Shenghong who came later. Thanks Weilun for those snacks and Shenghong for Macs delivery of nuggets!!. Anyways, headed down to play badminton with Haowen and Elson, had so much fun and laughter. Supper at Kallang Bahru with Elson and Shenghong and back to Boonkeng to slack with Jason and Shenghong. Then home sweet home.

Today, another fun day with badminton games. I freaking hell saw three fat pigs today, someone i don't know but .. Hee, woke up earlier than Sunthar and i'm no longer a pig for one day, awesome much! Played badminton, slack around Boonkeng, have lunch and all with those awesome humans ; Sunthar, Elson, Jason, Shenghong, Ronald and Fabian! Shall do a proper update when i'm very free, not now obviously! C:

Netball Nation Cup 'TWENTYELEVEN,

2011-12-11T23:59:00.001+08:00

Day One : 05th December

' Singapore VS Sri Lanka
1st quarter: 20 - 08
2nd quarter: 34 - 17
3rd Quarter: 54 - 28
4th Quarter: 73 - 36

' Namibia VS Papua New Guinea
1st quarter: 09 - 14
2nd quarter: 20 - 30
3rd Quarter: 29 - 43
4th Quarter: 48 - 55

' Fiji VS Malaysia
1st quarter: 11 - 09
2nd quarter: 27 - 11
3rd Quarter: 42 - 31
4th Quarter: 61 - 37

Day Two : 06th December

' Namibia VS Malaysia
1st quarter: 08 - 08
2nd quarter: 17 - 20
3rd Quarter: 27 - 35
4th Quarter: 44 - 42

' Singapore VS Papua New Guinea
1st quarter: 11 - 10
2nd quarter: 27 - 18
3rd Quarter: 35 - 29
4th Quarter: 54 - 36

' Sri Lanka VS Fiji
1st quarter: 07 - 20
2nd quarter: 14 - 41
3rd Quarter: 19 - 63
4th Quarter: 24 - 81

Day Three : 07th December

' Fiji VS Papua New Guinea
1st quarter: 15 - 10
2nd quarter: 29 - 23
3rd Quarter: 48 - 30
4th Quarter: 60 - 40

' Malaysia VS Sri Lanka
1st quarter: 17 - 13
2nd quarter: 33 - 25
3rd Quarter: 51 - 36
4th Quarter: 69 - 44

' Singapore VS Namibia
1st quarter: 13 - 11
2nd quarter: 26 - 21
3rd Quarter: 39 - 33
4th Quarter: 53 - 43

Day Four : 08th December

' Papua New Guinea VS Malaysia
1st quarter: 09 - 14
2nd quarter: 19 - 24
3rd Quarter: 35 - 36
4th Quarter: 51 - 53

' Sri Lanka VS Namibia
1st quarter: 12 - 22
2nd quarter: 24 - 45
3rd Quarter: 38 - 63
4th Quarter: 49 - 77

' Fiji VS Singapore
1st quarter: 11 - 08
2nd quarter: 25 - 13
3rd Quarter: 39 - 23
4th Quarter: 47 - 35

Day Five : 09th December
'Off day!

Day Six : 10th December
' Malaysia VS Singapore
1st quarter: 10 - 11
2nd quarter: 21 - 21
3rd Quarter: 27 - 33
4th Quarter: 35 - 42

' Papua New Guinea VS Sri Lanka
1st quarter: 17 - 16
2nd quarter: 37 - 33
3rd Quarter: 59 - 51
4th Quarter: 80 - 70

' Namibia VS Fiji
1st quarter: 9 - 18
2nd quarter: 15 - 35
3rd Quarter: 24 - 50
4th Quarter: 37 - 60

Day Seven : 11th December
' 5th VS 6th (Sri Lanka VS Papua New Guinea)
1st quarter: 19 - 15
2nd quarter: 32 - 38
3rd Quarter: 53 - 56
4th Quarter: 71 - 73

' 3rd VS 4th (Malaysia vs Namibia)
1st quarter: 12 - 11
2nd quarter: 25 - 22
3rd Quarter: 40 - 35
4th Quarter: 52 - 47

' 1st VS 2nd (Fiji vs Singapore)
1st quarter: 14 - 11
2nd quarter: 28 - 18
3rd Quarter: 38 - 31
4th Quarter: 51 - 42

Singapore's team '2011 ;
Jean Ng (Team Captain), Lin Qingyi (Team Vice-Captain), Cassandra Soh, Charmaine Soh, Yu Meiling, Chen Huifen (Star player), Charlene Porima, Nurul Baizura, Vanessa Lee, Shelby Koh, Premila Hirubalan, Chen Li Li.

Do i stlll care?

2011-12-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hey readers, i'm supposed to get my ass out and meet Sunthar, Elson, Huanjing and Shenghong to fetch Teckhuat as he is coming back today. Well, i'm officially sick and feeling totally weird. Anyways, Shenghong told me they made a waste trip down to the airport, they didn't see Teckhuat! So.., am i in luck or what? Hmm, how i wish i recover soon and of course next week reach real soon, i want to get my ass out to play. Great plans next week, HURRAY! Ohyes, went to visit the doctor today, lousy doctor uh! F.A.I.L. He can't even identify what's wrong with me. Oh, i need to shut up! C:

It's you, but why?! C:

2011-12-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

Sore throat, down with a low voice today when i headed out with Charlene, Sunthar, Enhai, Darren, Sufyan, Rahmat, Andy and Shenghong. Didnt bother to take my meals before heading out as i didn't feel like eating, :/ My day went like this ; meet Sunthar under his block and headed to meet the rest at Boonkeng mrt. Waited for Rahmat a little longer and headed down to East coast and our fun ride begins. Rode all the way down to Changi and some weird unfamiliar route. Slacked at Bedok Jetty and took group photos and off to Changi Village to eat! Laska was delicious, (Y)! HAHA!, it's been such a long time since i ate Laska. Anyways, returned the bikes and headed down to ToaPayoh with Shenghong as he wanted to watch the netball match. As soon as we reached ToaPayoh, i wanted to eat Popeyes but somehow it closed down for quite some time already. End up, didn't get what i want to eat, and went to the indoor stadium to watch the last quarter of Sri Lanka VS Namibia and four quarters of Fiji VS Singapore. Nice and exciting match, the whole stadium was filled with all sorts of noise. Hee, Singapore had a number of new players and i didn't see Premila today! After the game, Shenghong wanted supper and requested for Jason so Jason, Shenghong, Xiudong and me, we had our supper downstairs Jason's house and it was freaking funny. HAHA!, (Y)! C:

Screwed, :/

2011-12-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Woke up damn earlier this morning, met Elson for breakfast and waited for Chunren and Sunthar to come down. Went to take mrt and headed down to Esplanade. Reached our work place and wanted to change. Supposed to have work but end up the TCC girl called and work's off. Screwed, :/ Anyways, headed home to get changed and meet up with Elson, Sunthar, Chunren and Shenghong to POMO! Headed for two hours of pool and EPIC moments!! Well, ate our dinner at Popeyes and got ourselves back to Boonkeng to to slack with Azaad and Gobi, funny much.! HAHA!, pathetic cat got disturbed by them. Next, went to find Jason and cheer him up. Supper at Yassin and home sweet home. C:

Talk to me, will you?

2011-12-05T15:30:00.001+08:00

There's so much on my mind now, i'm not even sure if it is good or bad but i just have them in my mind lately. Responding to some things with a more different kind of response, compared to others. For example ; the person you like / love hang out with only girl(s) / guy(s) and normally people do feel jealous, i mean it's normal right?. But as for me, i felt that it's really fine, somehow it doesn't affect me much. I know i'm supposed to be jealous if this ever happen to me but no, i don't feel it. Next, every single humans do feel tired but somehow i don't feel the tiredness these day. Making myself super duper tired and hanging out till late nights used to make me really tired and i just fall on my bed each time. BUT!, i no longer feel tired or exhausted these day. What i mean is, i should be feeling the tiredness but somehow, i don't know how, i don't feel it anymore. I want to be able to feel tired once more, i don't want my body system to get use to it. At times, i would say that i'm tired. Yes, my brain tells me that i'm tired but my body system tells me i'm super awake and i can't sleep! I wish i know what's happening to me. Didn't managed to sleep well these days, only a couple of hours, like 3-4 hours and i'm awake. I used to sleep for solid 12 hours if i could but now, not even for 6 solid hours.. Somebody, tell me why? Am i way too tired till i can't rest properly or what? Well, i'm still deciding if i should head down to catch some netball matches or not. I can't make up my mind and it's pretty boring to head down alonee.. Really. C:

Edits,

End up, i didn't went to watch netball matches on Singapore VS Sri Lanka, Namibia VS Papa New Guinea and Fiji VS Malaysia. Anyways, congrats to Singapore, Papa New Guinea and Fiji for wining their first match! Elson and Shenghong came to find me and we headed to meet Ronald, and Fabian at the basketball court. Mummy cheated my feeling today, she said she would cook but end up she didn't, i saw her only when i left the house. Well, Jason and Sunthar came down after that wanting to play basketball but Dhurga's basketball was kind of airless so we borrowed from the opposite court. Played 1 VS 1 with Jason and i won. Hee, went slacking at the fitness corner and next, to Kallang bahru for Prata again. This time, supper was with Jason, Shenghong, Elson and Haowen.! After eating, home sweet home with Elson, and of course, sent Jason back home safely! HAHA! C:

You're the apple of my eye, baby

2011-12-04T23:59:00.003+08:00

It's 4:22AM! My day was separated into two different sections and i totally enjoyed both the sections! Anyways, supposed to wake up at 9.30pm but i fall back asleep till 11pm, texted Weilun and went to bathe. Met Weilun downstairs my house and we went to Boonkeng's macs to have brunch. Saw Yonglee and Eddy, been long since we chatted. Ohwell, headed to Cathay to buy tickets for the movie ; 'You're The Apple Of My Eye' then went to Plaza Sing's Star factory to play arcade. I super fail playing arcade, Weilun just win me in everything. Sigh, :/ Went walking around and down to Secret Recipe to have Oreo Cheesecake, not very nice though, :x After eating, off to Cathay, bought drinks and went in to sit down. Third movie of this week! The movie was nice, 4/5, (Y)! Didn't know where to go so we headed to City Square Mall's Long John Silver to have dinner and walked our way back to Boonkeng, home sweet home. Waited for Elson and Shenghong to come over to my house and pumped Elson's bike.! Ride our way to Kallang to find Ronald and Fabian, rode down to Old Airport to have dinner. Next, down to East coast! It was super cold, super quiet and super creepy. Just imagine!, those lights off-ed after you by pass them, you will be totally freak out. Didn't care much and continued to ride till Bedok Jetty. There's this man who have got a fishing rod which is super long, he launched it for two times and it's super scary. A feeling of being pulled anytime into the sea, scary much! Slacked awhile and ride all they way down to Changi's direction., on our way down, it was super funny with Ronald and all this faggot face expressions! HAHA!, Ate supper at Ariff's restaurant with Fabian, Ronald, Elson and Shenghong then headed home. Thanks Shenghong for sending me home.! I should be feeling tired but i can't sleep, :/ I wonder why am i having this kind of feeling every night nowadays! Ohyes, Netball Nation Cup starts tomorrow, should i head down to watch it tomorrow? I will be missing Tuesday and Wednesday's matches.. C:

Buddy-licious, ♥♥

2011-12-03T20:04:00.003+08:00

Hello humans, *smilesmiles*! My pretty short awesome day ended and i really did enjoyed much! Especially with my dearest buddy, LowJiahui, with all those heart-to-hearts and all, ♥! Well, my day started with meeting up with that blogshop lady ; Charissa, she's late for an hour and all she did was smile and grins. Anyways, i have gotten my superman hoodie! *Superlikes* Hee, then off to meet buddy and headed to the market to have our brunch. Bus down to Suntec and headed to some convention hall and there were so many people. Went walking around with buddy and slacked at burger king, not forgetting our heart-to-heart chats. Could say that i really miss heart-to-heart chats with her as we haven't been having sessions like this due to our National Exams and all our busyness. Ohyes, and she told me that she like green too!! (Y) Took bus and headed back to Boonkeng, slacked awhile and home sweet home. She's leaving Singapore soon, hopefully she will have fun! More photos are up on facebook! Hee, C:

Exercising day,

2011-12-02T22:31:00.002+08:00

Hello earthlings, i'm back again! Ohwell, supposed to meet Sunthar, Elson, Chunren and Weihao at 12pm, but end up, i met them at only 2pm, two solid late hours. Hee, #likeaboss! (Y) Anyways, had Just Acia for lunch and the Mayans was so funny, all sorts of sound.! HAHA!, had a great laugh with those asses. Next, head down to Boonkeng and waited for Dhurga and her friend to come down with the basketball. End up, Weihao's pump spoiled. So, Sunthar, Elson, Dhurga and her friend went to some bicycle shop to get it pumped while Weihao return home for toilet! Only Chunren and me sat there talking about some nonsense stuff. Hee, played basketball when they returned and it was fun. PWNED totally! Super fun, not forgetting us, laughing like so weird humans. HAHA!, dinner at Macs with Elson, Weihao, Chunren and Sunthar. Fun day, (Y)! Then, saw Jason while we were walking to the market to buy some food, i poked his stomach and his expression was like whatthefug?! Funny guy! Waited for quite some time till the food is ready and the auntie is super racist! And yes, i did something stupid, text Elson when he was beside me talking to me about Ronald and the plans coming up! HA, andand home sweet home with Sunthar and Elson, had a great chat, with funny weird words placed in our conversation! HAHA! Ohyeah, it's a super duper cold day today, feeling so cold everywhere i head to. Be it sunny or raining, i find myself weird somethings. Is it normal to feel cold in Singapore these days? I wonder.. But somehow i feel weird living in Singapore for 16years and more, feeling cold. It's weird, Singapore is a supposed to be a super hot country. It used to be sunny every single day, and humans usually would complain hot! But now, cold much! C:

Be a good month kay? C:

2011-12-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

Hello December, bye November. Well, November is quite a good month i would say, with all those mornings jogs with Eunice and Chiweng, going back to school with the usuals and hanging out. Not forgetting the Gradnight and all those crazy nights and lepakking everywhere. Anyways, it's kind of a good start for December though. Met up with Sunthar nder his block and head off to the Mrt station to meet Weihao and Elson, then down to Raffles' Place Mrt station. Supposed to meet a girl but she overslept, so went off to Fullerton hotel on our own. Hee, changed uniform, signed in and stuff, and off to work. From 7am all the way till 6.15pm! Ohyes, had break with Naveen, had a great chat and back up to work, totally tired and my legs are all numbed, great feeling! (Y) HAHA!, Elson, Sunthar, Weihao, Wenjun and i were all slipt up, damn bored. Today's time was so slow, but still, the day ended. Next, went dinner with Elson, had a great heart-to-heart chat! Hee, ♥! Home sweet home with him and we saw Nabilah and Afif on the way home, nice chat though, so envy of Nabilah, she have got super long hair. Envy much! C:

Already famous,

2011-11-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

Last day of December, had a fun day with Enhai but somehow it was short. Actually didn't want to go out anymore as plans were cancelled and i didn't know what to do. Woke up pretty late during the afternoon and didn't feel like going out anymore, what's more?, plans cancelled due to many of a humans. Wellwell, soon Enhai's call came in, and off i went to Plaza Sing's kfc to meet him. Planned to watched some movies but Golden Village and Cathay also don't have, so end up we bought Already Famous's ticket at 8:45pm, i think we too free. Anyways, headed off to Cineleisure to play pool. Saw Jiawei! HAHA!, had dinner at Garffiti Cafe, Wanton mee! Had our lucky 26!! Hee, ate and rushed back to Plaza Sing to watch movie, finally 8:45pm! Woah!, nice movie though, 4.5/5, super duper funny, especially that fat boy who wants to learn ballet!. Next, home sweet home! C:

winkwinks C:

2011-11-29T19:19:00.002+08:00

Ohyes, my day just ended! Hurray, what a long tiring day i had with Sunthar, Elson and Weihao, not forgetting a bloody fuck face and irresponsible idiot!. Andand, Ganesan and Naveen who has been working there for quite long! Okay, it went like this ; met up with Sunthar downstairs his block and off to the Mrt station to meet Elson and Weihao, as expected we were late but was super early to meet Yisiang at Raffles' Place Mrt station. Didn't expect him to be so young, just like any other teenagers, was totally shocked when i saw him. Well, waited for one typical arrogant small kid, aged around 15 who has no time management. Totally arrogant even after he was late, he didn't even apologise, just walked away like that. Walked our way to Fullerton hotel and went to the uniform center to collect our uniform, we were so blur as it was our first time at that hotel. Anyways, took uniform and the guy disappeared, so irresponsible, didn't even tell us what to do. Well, headed to the toliet and got ourselves changed, nice uniform though. Hee, down to town and work, serve serve serve, etc, all the way till 4pm sharp. OFF WORK! (Y) Total relive. Well, next went to have our 'dinner' at City Square, at Subway! I could barely feel my legs, super numb. Hmm, strolled back home with the three of them, all of us were tired. Okay, went to meet Elson and Shenghong to slack at Boonkeng. First was at basketball court then next, to Macs. Saw many familiar faces. Hang around and off to Whampoa to meet Elton. Had a long chat and great laughs! Ohyea, thanks Elson for sending me home sweet home. Awesome heart-to-heart chat with him though. *smiles* C:

Puss in Boots, (Y)

2011-11-28T22:44:00.001+08:00

Woke up and helped my mum with some stuff before leaving house. Yet, texted somebody and tears flow, totally stupid of me. Tried to go back to sleep but yet, i can't sleep. Woke up, showered, ate my lunch and decided to go and meet Sunthar, Elson and Weihao! Anyways, another day out, had light lunch with Sunthar, Elson and Weihao at Just Acia. Saw Celine, it's been so long since i see her, felt so happy when i see her. Bloody Sunthar, Elson and Weihao don't even recognise her, till i waved. Her hair is so long, i'm so jealous. :/ Went arcade and played street fighter, i'm so noob, didn't know how to play leyy. Hee, after that watched Puss and Boots, freaking funny movie. Rating ; 4/5. Mother gooseeeee~~ HAHAH!, hang around and off to Clarke Quay to slack awhile. Next, walked out way to Suntec and walked along Singapore river and also, a market(?). Saw so many crabs, king crabs, fishyfishy and more. Super big and unique.! Soon, we took bus to City Square and had Kfc for dinner. Nice, and we saw Elson's cousin, she's kind of pretty! Well, walked back Boonkeng and home sweet home! Ohyes, thanks Kevin to actually text me up to check if i'm fine, thanks, i felt better! For first time, i was extremely sad because of text, can you believe it?, tears shouldn't flow, but it did. Things were beyond my control for that moment! Due to that, i have made a promise to myself, C:

You're back, (Y)

2011-11-27T23:59:00.007+08:00

WELCOME BACK TWINNEY! ♥ C:
And hey, Happy birthday to DCWL too! Hopefully, he have a great blast this morning when i'm sleeping away!. Met up with Chiweng and Andy to 'fetch' Charlene, hopefully she's fine! She grew fatter, :/ Hee, should slim down soon! Well, took the last train back and reached Boonkeng in time. Awesome max. Meet up with that ass, and home sweet home.! C:

Need a direction,

2011-11-26T17:58:00.004+08:00

Not sure if i should be updating today, but my heart insisted. Well, went pass a few items and i really want them, but was asking myself if i should really get! Why do i need it for? I've got not idea, somehow i find it totally useless. I don't know why but yes, useless. But at this moment i shouldn't be thinking about that, should get over it. My day was totally bored, did nothing but rot. Somehow i need someone to keep me busy at times. I really really want to get tired before the night arrive, i want nice sleep at nights. Ohyes, Charlene is coming back tomorrow night, time files.! C:

First Job training,

2011-11-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

A month more to Christmas, HOHOHO! Hopefully i see Santa, *kidding* :/ There's no such Santa person who even exist right? Okay, somehow i shouldn't ask this silly question! Hee, shouldn't even believe that Santa exist until i see him with my own eyes. Ohyes, got to get my gift for Christmas soon, don't want another late minute! Got to really get lots of present this year, (don't ask who) Well, got to be extremely prepared for CHRISTMAS this year.! Hee, excited much! Anyways, it's kind of a stupid day for me. Going to visit relative like nobody's business.. Have been going to their house for the pass four days at nights, super annoying. I'm super bored when i'm at their house, like totally. Last night when my mum told me i have to visit them with her for the whole day, i was totally bored to the max. Don't even hope i would wake up this morning. Hai, just imagine that you have to go to Tampiness and then to Bishan till the night, super sian can?! I mean i'm not even close to them not all of them but still, i don't want to go.. Somehow can't be bothered with them, really and like totally and seriously.. I would rather stay at home.! End up, i went for job training at Pan Pacific! The night was really awesome and i got to know some new people, funny people. HAHA!, nice night i had. I feel that it's awesome to have at least one couple to have wedding per night! C:

24th, a year since i met you,

2011-11-24T20:53:00.000+08:00

Hello earthlings and readers, i'm back and enjoyed my day with awesome humans ; Ain, Sunthar, Benny, Elson, Huangjing, Weihao and Chunren. Celebrated mature 16 Benny's birthday in advance. Met up with Sunthar and headed to met Elson, Weihao and Huanjing. Down to Clarke Quay and hang around. Off to Vivocity to meet Ain and Benny, they look awkward. Ohwell, headed to some chicken rice shop and ate breakfast there as it was still early. Off to Sentosa, Chunren came and we got the cake cut. Soon, we went for sky rides and luge rides, super fun, but it's super high. Scared much, :/ Next, into the water, water and sand fights with Elson, Sunthar, Benny and Huanjing! HAh!, funny much! Decided to take an early shower and head back to Vivocity as it was going to rain. And as predicted, it rain when we were going back, super lucky. Went to Subway to have our filling dinner, awesome max. Soon enough, home sweet home with Sunthar, Elson, Benny, Huanjing and Weihao! HAHA!, fun day i would say. C:

Remember what you once told me?, i met you on this day. Some random but awesome day. Well, you're awesome though, taintain uh! Hmm, still remembered how we first met, so funny and all. Those memories and stuffs, you told me, i kept it within me.You are someone who i adore and would enjoy with, with all your silliness and awesomeness. You're really awesome with all those that you have shared with me. Thankyou, one of a kind.! ♥♥ C:

Reflect on what you've done,

2011-11-23T20:30:00.001+08:00

You don't come from a poor family, i mean not rich but not very poor either. I mean, i mean why do you have to do this?, have you think of what will eventually happened?! I mean, don't you even feel bad about it or even guilty towards the victim? Just why, why can't you use your brain to think about it. Yes, advantages is to you, it's cause you could spent it like free but have you actually thought of the disadvantages or rather those consequences? Have you ever thought about what will happen to the victim? With my clear mind i could answer you, you don't. You don't use your brain to think, you don't use your ass to think, you don't think. Thinking back, your parents actually taught you well, excluding those hitting, beatings, scoldings, and all those negatives. They brought you up, and you did this to them? This isn't the freaking time you did this, why won't you even reflect on it? Yes, you have a girlfriend, you bring her out for movies, lunch, dinner, entertainments, and all kind of stuffs, but you don't even know how to earn money, not a single cents. You have never gotten the taste of working, different kind of work have got different hard work, but do you even know?. Reflect please.. kthanksbye. C:

Just the way you are,

2011-11-23T19:16:00.001+08:00

My day went pass real slow. Walking all around the house, the streets, like a dead zombie and what's more?, i can't even sleep last night, so end up i stayed up the whole night till now. I did tried to sleep, but no matter how, i can't sleep. Mummy say i had too much on my head, but i got nothing to think about, nothing at all. I find myself awesome, pretty awesome to be able to stay up till so long, for like 33 hours and still, counting on. Well, chatted with Yaowei, Yongkiat, Kevin on the net last night, this morning rather. Yaowei never fail to remind me about the song I'm sexy and i know it, and his wiggle dance, damn sexy! (Y) Anyways, i actually watched the television till 11plus, like although there's nothing to watch at all. I just stone there and watched the shows. Weird hur, :/ Played some online games, chat with some humans and slack around like some bored human. Okay, for that moment, i was really bored. Ohyeah, was injured on the way to the bank, knocked onto something and my leg started to bleed and it's flowing non-stop. Reached the bank after a few path of road as mummy want me to change the bank account to ATM card which i somehow don't like, did withdraw a little amount of money, :x Off to CitySquare and met my aunt. Awkward to the max and yes, i saw my cousins, totally awkward. Didn't hang out long, bought Old Chang Kee and home sweet home. Supposed to go running with Eunice but it's still raining, and i'm like rotting! I actually knocked into something again and i'm covered with injuries, por me! I've got nothing better to do, i guess! Ohya, Yongliang is flying tonight, Bon voyage to him and hopefully he take extra care.! Have fun in Korea! C:

Hey bro, smile a little, i mean cheer up. Well, it's not a minute thing when you can say like, you're happy, you're happy. I do understand this, i know she mean loads to you, but it's okay, there's plenty of babes out there. She might be the one giving you plenty of awesome memories but it's okay, let go, move on and smile your day off. You still have us, all of us. It's life! Maybe, maybe you will find better girls out there, not saying that she's not good or whatever. Let it go, stop thinking about it. It's hard but you got to try, smile my dear! Cheer up before you come back, will be awaiting to see you real soon. When you're back, we will get down to our PARTYMOOD and not forgetting those nonsenses we shared. HAHA, enjoy yourself yeah?, Stop your mind from thinking! Be a beatch with beatchy attitude! Hee, C:

Should i?

2011-11-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

Inbox me!
No one will get this 100% correct :)

1) My first name
2) My last name
3) My favorite drink
4) My birthday
5) My favorite colours
6) My eye colour
7) My favorite candy
8) My natural hair colour
9) My nickname that everyone uses
10) Someone I love
11) My best friends
12) Something that I can't live without
13) My favourite thing to do
14) my favourite ice cream

If you get this all correct, i'll give you one thing that you want! ♥

Unfortunately nobody have gotten it correct! Well, start stalking me, if you want to know them all. Ohwell, just feel like blogging and didn't know what to start with so i used that as a starting. I don't even know what to blog about. It's already the 22nd of November, two more days to the day i met you for a year. Was wondering how we actually met and stuff, those nonsense we shared all all those jokes we shared. Those home sweet home together and lots more, i wondered how i even started liking you. It's weird but somehow i did. Like you've said, liking someone doesn't need a reason, so why am i wondering? Hee, C:

Bon voyage Teckhuat, #likeabeatch

2011-11-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

► Another day with those beatches and not forgetting faggot, Sunthar, Shenghong and Teckhuat. Met up with Sunthar at around 3pm, headed down to Clarke Quay and hang around. Walked our way to Marina Square and met up with Azaad and saw so many Bendemeerians at Macs. Off to arcade and they played Maximum tune, was totally bored!! Next, off to Changi Airport. On the way to Changi Airport, Sunthar and i saw some drama queens, acting like some weirdos. One of the girl said that her stomach hurts pretty much and her friend, ask her to lie down on her shoulder. Weirdo much, superb funny. Sunthar and i were laughing like some retards, totally like one. And yeah, we saw someone like Dillon's brother but didn't care much, so headed to meet Teckhuat and his family. Soon all of us got hungry, so up to Kfc to have our dinner. On the way, we saw Dillon and his family, together with his church people, he still look so awesome! HAHA! Ohyes, funny Teckhuat, changed all his money to Thailand currency and only left a little bit of Singapore money! And the service at that particular Kfc have got a super cool service. Totally cool. Anyways, Shenghong came after that, and while he was eating, Teckhuat went off! Bon voyage to him, and hopefully he reached Thailand save! After Shenghong finished eating, went walking around and bought dark chocolates for myself. Delicious! (Y) Bus home with Shenghong and Sunthar, fun day, i would say! PEACE! C:

I dislike raining days,

2011-11-20T23:38:00.001+08:00

► So yeah, was so screwed in the morning, i mean afternoon! Gosh, i'm supposed to meet Sunthar at 1.30pm and i only woke up at that timing. How awesome can i be?! Ohwell, met him at around 2pm and headed to get drinks from Uncleyap, we saw Huangjing and Elson. Chatted awhile and they accompanied Sunthar and me, to the bus stop. Bus with Sunthar and head our way to Pasir Ris, called Shenghong on the way and he took mrt down to meet us for Prawning. Happygirl with my jellybeans on the bus to prevent me from having bus sick, super happy! Ohoh, after such a long day prawning, we were kind of fail, only managed to catch one pathetic prawn, super gross with the food. Eew!, and Shenghong was so daring! (Y) When we nearly finish prawning, the rain came. Stucked at there for a little bit of shelter and headed to the sport mall for wash up. Totally drenched! :/ Headed to Popeyes to have dinner and chatted about some nonsense. Full of nonsense! Anyways, went walking and slacking around, jokes were shared here and there, super hilarious! Soon, we took bus and head back to Boonkeng, such a long ride.! Nice day with Shenghong and Sunthar, OHYEAH! C:

You know what it is,

2011-11-19T20:37:00.009+08:00

►#likeabeatch, C:

Rot like a pig,

2011-11-18T23:20:00.004+08:00

► Didn't feel like going out so, just stayed at home the whole day and watched television. Well, i'm just going to post when i go out, feel like it or when i have interesting stuff to share with all of my readers!, cause by staying at home i don't know what to post. Somehow i feel like going back to last night, cause it was filled with plenty of fun and it was an enjoyable awesome night with all my school mates and not forgetting our overall Mr Bendemeerian, Yaowei! Ohyeah, had family dinner, or rather dinner at Novena Jack's place to have dinner. Wasn't a pleasant one as expected so yeah.. FULLSTOP! C:

Graduation night / Prom night, ♥

2011-11-17T23:59:00.006+08:00

My awesome partner for the night, MR.LUYAOWEI (MR BENDEMEERIAN)

Prom Kings and Queens (left to right); Yongliang, Annabel, Weeyap, Jacqueline, Yaowei, Evangeline, Sufyan, Nadhirah, Yosep and Fathiyah! <:

► Congratulations to our Mr and Ms Bendemeerian, Yaowei and Annabel! :3 So yeah, today marks the day most of us officially graduated from our lovely school ; Bendemeer Secondary School after four super solid years! It was an awesome, great, wonderful evening with all my schoolmates and not forgetting my fishy partner ; LuYaoWei.! All those rehearsal paid off totally. Anyways, my day was pretty long. In the morning, Eunice came over and we finished up MdmSoo's present and gotten a great disappointment, she's ain't leaving. How great! Whatever it is, we still gave her those gifts that we bought and made for her. Next, dressed up and waited for Yaowei to come down. Cabbed down with him and off to Civil service club, we were too early! Had fun talking and disturbing him with all sorts of nonsense, especially with fishy fishy meaning! HAH!, soon Yeeting and others came. Ohyes, nicely dressed prom kings and prom queens! Had rehearsal and couldn't stop disturbing Yaowei with Sufyan! Really funny!! Went down to get some snacks and drinks then wanted to play pool but both the tables are filled with humans, :c So we hang around, and Yaowei and Sufyan played arcade like two small little kids. Time files and we went up and was shocked to see so many people. Goodness!! Off to prepare, take photo and lots more. Kept on walking up and down, non-stop but did managed to eat a little. Up to the stage and was totally shivering, the aircon is super duper cold. Everything ended like around 10plus, took photos and went slacking with Elton, Ronald, Shenghong, Hongsen and Eugene, together with a bottle of peach tea! Ahhh, so great! Ohyes, Engkiat came to fetch me cause he said it's so late! And yeah, home sweet home with him! I had a great night, super awesome night with all of you! C:

Ex-EXCOs' Dinner,

2011-11-16T22:48:00.000+08:00

► What a tiring nice lovely day! Quite a long day, i should say. Woke up fresh in the morning and went to keep fit with Eunice and Chiweng. Didn't sweat today and was feeling rather cold. Slack here and there, and soon off to the market and had breakfast. Nice appetite i have got, with a bowl of fish ball noodles. Ohyes, saw Nicholas and he was singing, walking, listening to music and of course dancing, he looked super blur. HAHA, he said he went toning yesterday. Hmm, happy 16th birthday to him! <: Home sweet home and did a little work out. Super tired, but never fall asleep. Used computer, do drawings and more till 2pm. Off to school with Yaowei and had briefing. Damn EPIC! After that bought marker from Uncle Yap and off home to continue with drawings. Didn't managed to finish in time, damn it! Ohwell, but managed to finish before i go for dinner with my batch of EXCOs. Brought those stuff up to Eunice's house and off to meet Elson and Alwin. Was pretty late, sorry! Alrights, off to City hall to meet the others then head to Just Acia. Went to pick Fangdi ans Jason up as they don't know where is Just acia, super funny. So basically, i had my dinner with Ronald, Fangdi, Alwin, Elson, Shenghong, Jason, Calvin, Lester and Hongtat! It was fun and the ice-cream was superb awesome! Next, we walked around hunting for Fangdi's 5-inch heels. Was wonder why girls like to wear heels?! Anyways, home sweet home with Elson after that! Somehow it's a great day ans also a bad one with bad tummy! Aww.. Feeling so terribleee.....! C:

Remember me tonight,

2011-11-15T16:07:00.005+08:00

► Woke up pretty late, nearly in the afternoon! Head out to get my flats but after walking for so long, i only found hope in Rubi! Just got home after a short day with my dearest Eunice. Managed to get my flats at Rubi and i'm officially ready for graduation night that is coming up on Thursday! Ohyeah, i saw Alwin, Elson, Calvin, Jason and other 4Es students, looking so great and refreshing after Os'. (Y) HAH!, guess my day is really short today, shall get down to all those drawings before i welcome night today. Ohwell, got to finish it soon! C:

Another month of 15th, you should be feeling dead with not even a little feeling. Few more days till you officially graduate from our school, will miss you. I'm serious! Anyways, you look good now, getting a new girl? Hopefully. Well, you used to be there asking me not to get used to certain things but now, it's all used to it. Nothing to fret about, you live your life, i live mine. Well, i hope to see you on that day and maybe even a photo taken with you or so. Whatever it is, it might be the last night we are seeing each other. I wish you best! :3

World kindness day,

2011-11-14T23:59:00.001+08:00

► Another day out with not much voice. Ohwell, got to really learn to takecare of myself, don't want to be unable to talk during Gradnight! Well, went to Nex with Priscilla and Eunice came after that! Priscilla gotten a dress from FOND!, walked around and didn't manage to find a flats i like. :/ Down with Eunice to Farrerpark ; City square, still none. But i had butterfly bun, tasty much! (Y) So for today, i didn't get the flats i want, ohwell, better luck tomorrow. Anyways, it's worlds' kindness day, have you done anything kind? *winks* C:

You're driving me mad, i miss you so bad~

2011-11-13T23:11:00.001+08:00

► Hi humans!, i woke up with no every the lowest voice today!, totally no voice came out today. But somehow, it's fun. Many said i'm like whispering when i'm shouting. Ohwell, voiceless day today! I seriously don't know how to takecare of myself, really. Well, head out to meet Eunice at Little India and then down to Orchard. It's raining! :/ Bloody weather isn't that good. Walked our way to Takka. And somehow i felt how Eunice's job processes. Hmm, off to Far East at 6pm, shop and saw a dress from honey and bees. Really pretty!! Then off to Bugis and finally, bought my dress there so did Eunice. Walked around to look for our heels and flats, nothing came to our attention. Soon, bus home and i had dinner. Mummy made a cup of disgusting drink and she said that it was good for me. Eewwwwww!~ totally sour! :c So i had dinner, changed my bed sheet, shower and off to bed. I was so tired and i need to get my flats tomorrowwww. C:

Sexy voice, (Y)

2011-11-12T23:59:00.003+08:00

► Greetings humans!, met up with Enhai at the bus stop and bus down to Toapayoh. Reached and had the most disgusting breakfast ever. The breakfast sucks!, next, off the fairprice to get water and off to meet Mr.Seah (Jerry) at Macs. Chatted about life and the work we are going to do next. So when the time gets closer, we head off to the childcare center and Blk170 ; a center for the elderly. Ohwell, the councillors came. The councilors were given their jobs and off they go for cleaning! Enhai, Melvin, Mr Seah and me, went walking round and soon, off to the Childcare center. Saw Peiyun and councillors cleaning too! So hardworking. So yeah, did touch up for painting after the councillors have done painting and head to school for Dragon boating. Wellwell, was super sot with Enhai and MrSeah! HAA!, super sot. Ohyes, the kids in the center were all so cute. Every time Enhai has its pattern, they will laugh! But at the same time, they were so shy! Hee, had fun washing the brushes and all with Enhai in the boys' toliet too! Splashhhhhhhhh~~ As it was raining, MrSeah said take cab back to school. *faints*! Ohwell, the taxi driver was so noisy also, HAIYO! -.- Saw Hannah and other 5Ns mugging hard for their Os'. Anyways, bought KFC for Mr.Seah and both of us, went back school to eat andand also meet Ronald! Chatted, ate, etcetc and let the time run. Home to change to SC tee and head back to school. BBQ in the school and had some fun bonding games. As expected, Felicia to come. Woah, she got the power! Played dog-and-bone and Wacko with the council. Totally fun! Ohyes, and i finished the second packet of fisherman friend lemon sweet at that time, really suck with not much voice. Captain ball with EXCOs! Ronald, Elson, Alwin and Fangdi VS Yaowei, Jason, Shenghong and me! Had fun defending Alwin and Elson! Tapped quite a number of passes! Especially fast ones! Ohwell, had fun like totally. And at the end of the day, brought some of the councillors out to have prata at Yassin as they were hungry! Bring them back and home sweet home! C:

11/11/11 at 11:11PM,

2011-11-11T23:11:00.005+08:00

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

► Proud of myself, like at least i finished a meal this morning when i wake up at 12am! I made small potion of supper for myself and was happy enough to finish it. Ohwell, but only managed to get back to my Smiley land at 5 this morning. Everyone in the house was sleeping but me, roaming around like some lost kid. As expected, saw so many of them humans posting about 11/11/11, some even stayed up, like a fool. No offence but yeah.. Still, like a fool. Ohyes, and i think i'm ain't falling sick cause i felt much better than yesterday but somehow till the night arrived, i felt even worse than last night. Totally can't eat much yesterday, i had a hard time but today, could eat a little bit more than yesterday. Pathetic me! Basically i did nothing much today, my father wants me to stay at home when he didn't even come. So i spent my day rotting at home like some retard. Turning on and off the television, watching horror movie to keep me entertained, and what's more?, doing housework! At first i've got no idea why he wants me to stay at home but now i know. He could have at least told me earlier, like from the start! I mean, well, i could have gone for movie and go home early but it's when the night arrived then he told me. I was supposed to make my way to Novena's Jack Place, and the most orhsome thing is i don't like the food there and i could hardly finish the food with this kind of sucky feeling within me. I mean i could hardly finish any food now, be it something i like or not, like seriously.. I dislike this kind of feeling, like really.. Every single one of us out here want to make today a special day, celebrating with our lovelies and more. But somehow i didn't place high expectations to get out to have fun today. Last night, my plan was a screwed up for today. Supposed to hang out to go for movies with Enhai to watch 23:59 and TinTin, but some retard just ruin it with a bloody effing text. Guess it no longer will be a great day for me, ohwell.. Next, a topic on 11/11/11 which most of the humans talked about. People talk about 10/10/10, 11/11/11 and next, 12/12/12. Somehow i feel that it's just a number repeated thrice, FULLSTOP. Well, i do believe everyone or rather many of you humans are waiting for today to arrive. To a matter of facts, it might just be the date 11/11/11 that made today so special but who knows what had actually happened today. Some may feel happy, some may feel sad, some may feel pissed, some may feel like crying, different humans have different emotion to express for this special day! Some with tears of joy, some with tears of sadness. Anyways, i've made two wishes today, but somehow it seem so impossible, unless Miracle happens?! But only God knows what will happened. I don't expect much though, let's just leave it all to fate. Hopefully!!. First wish for 11/11/11 ; 11:11AM was to recover, i want to be like myself in the past, when i'm really healthy and strong with life. No fake smiles going on, and also no .. Never did i expect this to happen to me, but it happened so shall really be strong and get this over. I need miracle to happen, like seriously. Second wish on 11:11PM was about everyone being happy, especially that super human i've known! Ohwell, just stay happy humans! Ohkay, enough for 11/11/11. Anyways, it's coming to an end in another 45mins!. So yeah.. Ohyes, went roaming around people's blog till Yilin's blog and they, the netballers, have a blog! So cool. HAH!, cool as in after so much Yilin have told me about her team, their team is still kind of bonded and close still. Now, i believe that every single team out there, be it my team, her team or whichever team, every team has it's conflict. Every team has it's problem, every team has its' very own moment, be it happy, sad, angry, pissed, unhappy, worried. Well, i've learned so much from that blog. They are just like us, but every team is different. Well, disappointed is something every team will feel. Be it sooner or later. Got to face some facts, at times. Andand, the phrase "Once a team, forever a team", WELLSAID! (Y) C:

We found love, ♥

2011-11-10T21:00:00.010+08:00

► So yeah, going to update for both yesterday and today. Ohwell, was pretty tired yesterday so didn't update! My apologise to Yilin and Tekhuat, if they are waiting for the photo! Anyways, for yesterday, 9thNov, went out to have fun with Sunthar, Yilin and Teckhuat. Met Sunthar downstairs his house and some funny thing happened. Idiot! HAHH!, off to Kianhua to have breakfast and we saw Jiamin and friends. Chatted and headed off to the very old provision shop to get drinks. Well, the old man isn't working there anymore, he doesn't want to work anymore. Whatever it is, took Mrt down to Vivocity and walked around, looking for Sunthar's preferred shoe for Grad Night. End up, didn't managed to find it. Ohwell, with a disappointed face or rather feeling, we went to meet Teckhuat at the Mrt station and he's late for half and hour! Accompanied him to eat at food republic and was wondering if i should have my meal there. Well, end up, just stood there and had the bytch talk! Freaking funny. I guess only Sunthar and Teckhuat understand. Next, took the train in to Sentosa and slack while waiting for Teckhuat's girl ; Yilin to come. Went to play some ride thingy and off to the beach to play. Had heart-to-heart or small conversation on Netball with Yilin. She's friendly and we had so much to talk about Netball! She's a defender like me and has attitude like me, super orhsome! Anyways, i had fun with the three of them today, beatches! Home sweet home with Sunthar and Teckhuat, played situations game and had a fun time singing and laughing on the bus! We were like fools, at that point of time. HAHA!, and i remembered where i went to last night. Met up with that fool and we went to watch MOON and UFO, together with STAR! Somehow it sounded stupid! C:

Today, 10th, woke up earlier and had morning jogs with Chiweng and Eunice. So effing tired, only managed to run to a certain distance and i'm down with tiredness. Ohyes, off to market and only had lemon barley. Don't have the feeling to even eat, so yeah, didn't eat! Andand, managed to survive while walking home and didn't die half way! Goodjob Evangeline Goh! Ohyeah! Hee, was too tired to even work out when i got home. Showered and off to my SMILEYLAND! Pretty orhsome but didn't sleep well. Woke up at around 2plus and showered while waiting for Enhai to come. Daddy bought Subway for me, i only took a mouth and i'm done. I really got no feel. It's a very suckish feeling, and i don't like it. Off to school with Enhai and played Captain ball, andand Eunice came too! Today's session was only filled with a little people and Darren and Glenn had a haircut! AHHA!, and i saw some gangster walking into the school but didn't managed to see him face-to-face. Ohwell, not fated i guess. Dinner with Eunice and Enhai at Bendemeer Mall, didn't managed to finish, and i kind of waste food. Shucks, i don't have a good appetite today! :/ Hopefully i have a better appetite tomorrow! Ohyes, i'm ain't waiting to welcome 11/11/11 tonight, got to turn in early cause i'm effing tired today! But somehow i'm going to make two orhsome wishes on both the 11:11 in the morning and night!, if i can catch it tomorrow. Ohwell, let's leave to fate! C:

Happy thirteen month, Eunice and Farhan! <:
Happy seventh month, Yilin and Teckhuat! [:

People i've known, wondering who are those?

2011-11-08T14:13:00.139+08:00

► '#1, She love blogshopping, camwhoring, her boyfriend and more shopping. She have been a great one walking through this route with me, no matter rain or shine for around two years or so. She never like to eat too much for any meals, just full and it's fine with her if she don't eat. She like MosBurger, i guess it's one of her favourites fastfood restaurant. Ohyes, she love durian and she's always concern about her appearance, on how she look and stuff. She dislike her hair to be messy and curly, and she will do anything to make it neat and straight but if her hair pissed her off, she won't give a bloody damn about it. She love her hair colour, especially when it's exposed under the sun. As for her, shopping can make her day go right. She's a cute girl who doesn't like sport but somehow could see that she's trying to accept it. She could dress up really well. Also, wonderful to hang out with. Someone who is there to actually listen to my nonsense and commenting on the wrongdoings of me, sometimes. Well, she's great but she got to control on blogshopping. C:

► '#2, Like the first girl on top, she love Camwhoring, shopping, durian and more. She likes to sing all the time with those tune and lyrics coming out of her mouth. She whistle at times too. She love having fun and would go really crazy with pictures. She's madly, crazily in love with a guy and somehow a little too crazy over that guy. She love to get high with music and party till she had enough of it. She love her Adidas Jacket which she bought not long ago. Ohyes, hopefully she's fine back home and hopefully she enjoys. Ohyes, she like roses just like me. She never fail to disturb JerrySeah with Potato and she love Whampoa Market's hokkien mee, also the sugar cane there! Sometimes with a little attitude but it's still okay. Not a biggie though. Everyone has their attitude, so yeah. She's awesome to hang out with, she's great i would say! C:

► '#3, We used to be close, but after some things that happened, we so called drifting. She's an awesome girl who never fails to cheer me up and talk to me about her life. I'm weird, but i simply love it when she complains with her cute face and expressions to describe about each thing!! I love heart-to-heart talks with her and also, sharing about our lifes, talking about random stuffs and gossiping on people! She seem so sad now, i want to be there for her but somehow i'm afraid i will make matter worst. Shall really go with the flow. Hopefully the guy she likes, likes her too. She love leopard prints and she's always up to crazy stuff. Yes, i love having trainings with her and playing sport with her. She's funny, hyper and crazy at times. I'm sure she love to sing in Kbox too! It's been long since i had heart-to-heart with her. Ohyes, she love sports and we used to play basketball, netball and other sports together. She does have a little of her attitude but somehow it's cute of her with all those reactions and expressions. She's amazing and awesome! C:

► '#4, We seldom hangout now. He likes to take a longer route home in the bus and chats about his life and those funky days.! Well, he is someone who is able to talk to me and make me think really far. He always letting me with everything i want. He's an awesome friend, in fact everyone is awesome to me. He love to play situation games with me when we have got nothing much to talk about, after our conversations. He dislike his race and he likes to hang out with other races more. He's cool with dressing and took pretty long to decide what to wear, also he thinks that we are drifting. Not forgetting, us being a fool on a particular day. He knows that i love food and he actually bring me to this food stall and the food was delicious! He love to crack stupid jokes and do stupid things to make people laugh, and he also love to disturb people with his nonsense. He likes to have heart-to-heart sessions with me too! He's wonderful. C:

► '#5, We don't talk much these days, or rather i don't see him much after we had our holidays. He's someone great and also someone who would do awesome things for his brothers and sisters, especially those close one. Kfc was one of his favourite fastfood! He always try hard to make people laugh and recently, he have been more guailan. He love to tease me and laugh like a fool. Okay, he's like a fool. He has great pool moves, he great in pool and i like the way he teaches someone pool, very unique. Ohyes, he play Maximum Tune too, in all kinds of arcade i guess. but somehow we are always running out of topics when we talk.! Not good, not good. He's a fantastic friend or rather a brother of mine! Ohya, he can't take spicy food! C:

► '#6, Just like that guy above, he love Pool and Maximum Tune. He always press on the wall for money to come out when we are out to play and party! He is always short of cash and still, want to get branded goods. He someone who has the gangster image but doesn't have a attitude like that now. Maybe in the past, he does have a gangster attitude, a gangster way of speaking but now, none of the above! I guess he have really change to someone better and also not some sort of gangster. He used to be guailan but somehow a little lesser guailan now. He has a better stamina than me, but i have a better speed than him, and he lose to me in 2.4km run during Napfa! He kind of like basketball. Also, a great friend indeed. C:

► '#7, He wanted the past back, and silly of him to think the way he's thinking now. Conflicts happened, so be it. Well, he should learn to move on and let the past go. Er, he likes Peachtea and Lollipops. He's a guy who is quite quiet at times and he doesn't like to doubt me. He always wish for 11:11, thankfully but those wishes were .. Anyways, he have been really sad these few months, so i hope he cheer up soon! C:

► '#8, He is someone who love to eat and is afraid of getting fat! He never fail to make me smile like a fool and laugh like a silly. He is also someone who always forgets to eat his meal and need constant reminder. He's fit and he is someone i know better in school. He have got all sort of funny funny things to share and he love to attack my weakness. He's cute and he love dogs, or rather puppies. He always try his way to make me smile and laugh. He is up to some problems and i hope he clear it soon. Well, hopefully he do the right thing and cheer up a little. He knows how to handle problems and troubles on his own, like hopefully. He's a funny guy, he's awesome! Ohyes, he don't know how to spell sweet! Unique indeed! C:

Thinking a little too much, right? C:

2011-11-07T23:59:00.005+08:00

► Ohkay, HAPPYBIRTHDAY TO MY AHHAI, SEAHENHAI! <: Finally home sweet home after such a long day, filled with a little painfulness on my bigbig toe. Well, like again, i'm injured AGAIN! Hmm, hack care uh, not very deep though. Anyways, it's a fun day today. Had fun with Eunice, Chiweng and Sunthar.

Met up with Eunice and Chiweng at the fitness corner and head off to have breakfast at Bendemeer Mall Market. Fishball noodles, tasty much! Ohyes, bus down to East coast and ride bike, had fun laughing and chatting while cycling. And Chiweng is afraid of coconuts hitting his head and making him unconscious! Funny much, head home and helped my mum with some stuff before going out to meet Sunthar. So yeah, met up with Sunthar and headed off to Queenstown or rather Queensway. They are the same, HAH! Had curry chicken for lunch, so delicious. (Y) AHAH, nicest curry chicken i ever eat, not compared to mummy's. Ohyes, walked around the 'shopping mall' and was laughing away with Sunthar! Supposed to meet my blogshop people, but she went for movie. So crazily, Sunthar and i went to Pasir Ris to walk around. We effing took 2 bus and mrt down to Pasir Ris! There's Prawning, Fishing and Crabbing there, and also a new sport place with Swimming pool. Super orhsome! Had Subway for dinner and i love those cookies, ORHSOME! Hee, (Y)! I saw alot of army boys, and i actually think of Leo, Fabian, Dennison and Zhenyu! I wonder how they survive with no Macs, no KFC, no Subway, no Pizzahut, no PastaMania, no fastfood, no delicious unhealthy food insideee! Poor thing! :/ Train down to Tampiness to wait for the blogshop owner. She's damn young, only 12! Andand, took bus home and took a loop from Little India! Walked around St.Michael and home sweet home with Sunthar! Orhsome day!

I've played situations game with Sunthar earlier on, and injured my big toe earlier earlier on, how great! Well, had fun having heart-to-heart talk with Sunthar! And i kind of strike 4D after that text! Shucks!, i think i'm thinking too much, it's not a good feeling. Not going to think about it. Anyways, had so much plans with Sunthar for upcoming, going to call everyone else. Ohyes, going to have lot and lots of FUNNN! Andand, i think i have gotten sunburn, i'm feeling the painfulness on my cheeks! What's more?, SUNTHAR is A BYTCH TODAY! Ohyeahhhhh! C:

I walked under that particular star and that small moon tonight, you seem to be around there. I don't know what to say, it feels better with you walking along the little road with me, having me to disturb you! Glad that you actually told me that you like this particular girl which i don't know who, but goodluck on her. Don't think so much aye! If she's yours, she will be yours! Cheer up soonnnnnnnnn! (:

Getting lesser,

2011-11-06T21:14:00.000+08:00

► Sometimes i wonder, why are these happening to me! It used to be eight in total for dinner, but it's getting lesser and lesser when days goes by. From eight to six, from six to five and from five to three. I wonder what's happening .. Will this number reduce again?, i wonder.. Anyways, went walking up and down, left and right, forward and backward, to Farrerpark, DhobyGhuat, Somerset, and Orchard, all by myself. Everyone seem to be busy these day, so decided to get out on my own! So yeah, walkwalkwalk, thinkthinkthink, shopshopshop. Spent $85.70! Woah, i was like so much?! Ohyes, and i found out that shopping isn't my medicine to cure me from my current mood. I don't know how am i feeling, it's not a good feeling. Ohwell, got to get over it. Home sweet home and had dinner with mummy and korkor! I swear it was orhsome! Very orhsome dinner i had, after such a long time, like although it's three of us only. Okay, i've got nothing much to say, so yeah, byeeeeeee humans! C:

Fading ..

2011-11-05T20:08:00.002+08:00

► So yeah, i made a confession and went to bed this morning at 3am. Well, slept all the way till 3pm and that's like 12hours straight. Ohwell, i was super tired last night but couldn't sleep all the way till 3am. Next, woke up and stone my day away. Furthermore, i've got nothing to do. Watched movies, facebooked, tweeted and nothing else but stoning. I don't know what to do, was wondering who's free tomorrow, but nobody is responding to me. And more, i feel like a retarded! Ohwell, i should shut up, bye! C:

One last time, takecare! C:

2011-11-04T22:34:00.007+08:00

► Ohmy, up at around 5.40am this morning, super crazy! Changed, wash up and off to meet Eunice and Chiweng at your house downstairs, basically block three. Walked our way to the start of Kallang Bahru and ran a 'Z' road, all the way to the fitness corner! Slack awhile and overheard those aunties at the fitness corner who talked about actors and actresses, kind of funny. Despite for being unable to understand the language. :/ Anyways, off to the market to have breakfast! Ahhh, porridge, super orhsome! (Y) Next, walked our way back to Boonkeng, and i was yawning away like a retarded. Was feeling super tired and very much didn't feel like walking anymore. Home sweet home and showered, failed to sleep so all i did was just stoning and staring into space! Ohwell, got ready and went to find Eunice. Accompanied her to Bishan for her blogshop collection and hang around in the mall. I don't know what's wrong today, i kept on seeing those netballers. Memories flashed! Whatever it is, cotton on was on promotion, i think it's to clear all their stocks. So many of them, WOAH! HAHAH!, and i want to change my wallet. I think i'm crazy, cause i'm changing it cause mummy don't like it. Hmm, why satisfy her?, but i've got no idea! Wellwell, back to Boonkeng and up to Eunice's house. She cooked maggie with hotdog and bacons for me, sweeeeeet! <: AHHA, not forgetting her offer for Yakult! And it's green! OHYEAH! C:

Ohyes, home to change at 3.50pm and i saw Yicong walking up and down outside school. He didn't want to go for NPCC! Oh, off home to change and get my hair tied, then down tot school! Saw Enhai and others, slacked and chatted. Ohyeah, captain ball started in awhile and the atmosphere was so hyper. Quite a number of people (Eunice, Jiahui, Huiling, Prema, Prema's friend, Yeeting, NgQianhui, Zhonglin, Jason, Junwei, GlennTan, Enhai, Yushu, Shan, Aravin, Leo, Dennison, Dennison's friend (Zhenlin, i think), Yaowei, Wenhao, Yongkiat, Yongliang, David, Joey, Rongquan, Yicong, Phengsiong, Naveen) today, (sorry if i miss out anyone) and it's the last session of captain for this year. Also, it's Dennison and Zhenyu's last day, but Zhenyu didn't play! Much of the 4Es and 5Ns today, to release stress i think? Well, i don't know what's the reason. Anyways, i don't care also. Just have fun and we're set! Had two games today, the first one was orhsome and Dennison is a retarded, he poured warm water on me purposely and it was so gaowei! Irritating much, -.- The second game was still okay, quite bored though. Ohya, i like Zhenyu's top today, same goes to Eunice! Niceeeeeee i would say, it looks pretty! Not Zhenyu pretty but his top, not a bad taste! AHAH!, game carried on till around 7pm, chatted awhile and off to Euncie's house to get her stuff with Eunice and Enhai. Next, dinner at Macs, but i didn't eat, just had a cup of ice lemon tea, i've got no feeling. And i think i'm crazy i shivered all the way from the time i entered Macs till i went out. Haiyo! :/

Home sweet home with Eunice after sending Enhai to the bus stop. And block 4C is painted, 4C!HAHAH!, walked home after i 'sent' Eunice home! Had so much in my mind.! What's with me, seriously? Ohyeahyeahyeah, takecare Zhonglin for your hand, Enhai for your big toe, Ms Ng for your back and your head, and others who are injured today! I had fun today with you guys! Big thanks! SMILEYFACEEEEEEE ; SMILESMILESMILE! C:

Second time,

2011-11-03T21:59:00.004+08:00

► Hilarous day towards the end, i would say. Ohyes, so my day went like this ; Meet up with Eunice and Chiweng for a little jog around St.George's, Boonkeng and Kallang but somehow we only ran for about 400m! I was effing tired, my stamina dropped till i don't know how to put it. Ohoh, thanks Chiweng for drinks at coffee shop! Chatted and had fun laughing and smiling at several things. Next, walked back to St.George's. On the way, we went to have some swing time together. Never did i expect those phobia to return! Ohmy! :/ After all, it didn't affect much. Soon, home sweet home. Watched movies and had brunch, then shower. Change up, wash up and off to school for Captain ball. So orhsome to sweat so much! (Y) Ohyes, many came down to play Captain ball today and most of the people were so aggressive and fierce!! Ohya, Enhai came too! After captain ball, had a great time talking to Eunice and Enhai, till the school close, we also don't know! Best! (Y) HAHAH!, and today was the jokiest day ever. We actually climb over the school gate to get ourselves free and head to KFC for dinner. Funny much, and we saw Yangjie's daddy. Paiseh much. Ohwell, shall get used to it. It's the second time i climb out of school! So yeah, had KFC with Enhai and Eunice. Andand, home sweet home with Eunice! C:

HELLYEAH, I'M SO OBSESSED WITH SUPERMAN AND ROSES! ♥

Rotting,

2011-11-02T19:09:00.003+08:00

► Dear you,
Thanks for making me chose on the worst thing i ever choose today. I made it the worst choice, i've chosen! Pretty thanks. Well, i never felt so bad before. Never would i want this feeling, this kind of feeling just sucks to the very max. Maybe you don't understand, but kindly, don't get drunk anymore.! For once, stop drinking. For twice, stop drinking. And still lastly, stop drinking. I'm just disappointed, i've got nothing much to say. Kthanksbye!
From, me. C:

S u p e r m a n ! C:

2011-11-01T15:52:00.012+08:00

►Sososososo!, *blinkblink* It's November and i somehow miss October a little, those crazy shyts i've done. Those party people, i've met i October. Not much but still, those orhsome ones. And like seriously, last month passed too fast, just a blink and we are welcoming November today! Remembering, i've been mugging so hard for the start of October and after OctTen, like recently and of course including now, relaxing, playing and lepaking like free. Well, got to know some people better than i used to, especially those party people, those hyper and crazy humans! Also, heading back to school with a bunch of orhsome people, knowing another bunch of orhsome people and hanging out with all those orhsome people! This happened, that happened. I could say it had been great, orhsome, irritating, retarded, annoying, happy, unhappy, sad, and a mixture of emotions last month! It could be better, i guess. Things will be better than it should be. But still, i didn't like October much, hopefully November is a better month ahead. Ohyes, Charlene is going back to Thailand tomorrow, and i'm going to miss her so much! :/ Anyways, i heard the church bell again, felt so great to hear it every beginning of the month, i guess it marks new chances, new beginnings and a fresh month!

Well, went to hop on some people's blog. I found out so much about one's life. How one motivates the next, and the next next and eventually, the next next next!. Listened to all kinds of blog songs, read so much about one's life and found so much about their love life, their school life and of course, their normal life. It's interesting, lovable, sad, touching and lots more to describe! Many had a failure in relationship and the saddest thing is they ain't getting into another relationship! But it's just one saying that they don't want another one but who knows?, they might get another girl or boy soon! Many are sad with life and kept on thinking so negatively. Hmm, this lead me to the question almost every soul ask me, i wondered and asked myself, why am i so positive and nothing seems to be affecting me anymore. Maybe those things used to have the hardest impact deep down, dragging and pulling me down, really deep so now, i don't know whether it cured or not, but yet i choose not to let it affect me and the things i do!. Seems like i'm getting lesser attention to my surroundings nowadays. I'm reacting really slow these days, couldn't keep up with much speed and all i could do is smile. Couldn't care much, cause i know the more i do care, the less positive i will be. So yeah, why bother?

So who knows?, who knows if i'm sad, angry, depressed, pissed, unhappy, or even filled with shyt feelings?, not much, maybe just one or two out of a hundred!. Sometimes when i don't feel anything and just stared into the space, people thought i'm unhappy. Sometimes when i don't smile, people thought i'm unhappy. Sometimes when i smile and laugh, people thought i'm fine. So, who actually knows the truth in me? Yes, i may appear happy, smiling my day off, leading with a positive laughs and more, but will humans know when i'm sad, unhappy, depressed, pissed or even having other emotions? Answer being, nope. Ask yourself, out of so many friends, family and buddies, how many know you best and also, deep with their heart? Not much. Every human need someone to be there for them through thick and thin with all kinds of loves but who will be willing to be there for all of you? Well, depending on what kind of friends, you've known.!

So yeah, all i did was just rotting at home. Nothing much for today. And i'm obsessed with SUPERMAN! Not the guy but the logo! C:

►Superman Biography,
Superman is the sole survivor of the planet Krypton. His father, Jor-El, discovered that a nuclear chain reaction was building inside Krypton that would soon shatter the entire world. Jor-El therefore had his unborn son Kal-El removed from the Kryptonian Gestation Chambers and affixed the life matrix containing Kal-El to an experimental vessel for travel through hyperspace. Jor-El launched the starcraft toward Earth just before Krypton exploded. Superman was, in effect, born on Earth when the starcraft landed there. Jonathan and Martha Kent found the infant inside the vessel and brought him to their farm in Smallville, Kansas. Since he appeared entirely human, the Kents assumed that the baby was a victim of a cruel experiment. At this time the baby had no super powers. The Kents named the infant Clark and raised him as their own son.

As clark grew older his Kryptonian body began developing superhuman abilities. When Clark was eighteen, took him to the field where his starcraft still lay hidden and explained how he and Martha had found him. Clark resolved to use his powers from then on only for the good of mankind. After revealing his secret to his childhood friend, Lana Lang, Clark left Smallville to study at Metropolis University. Clark initially used his powers covertly to help people and prevent or thwart disasters. Ultimately, he was forced to use his powers in public to prev ent the crash of a NASA space-plane. Thereafter he and his foster parents devised a new costumed secret identity he would adopt when using his abilities in public. They called his new persona "Superman," the name given him by Lois Lane, a reporter for the Metropolis Daily Planet who had been aboard the space-plane. Shortly afterward, Clark obtained a job as a reporter for the Daily Planet by turning in his first detailed story about Superman. He currently enjoys a freelance status with the Planet.

Some time ago Superman journeyed to an otherdimensional "pocket universe" that had its own Krypton and Earth. After defeating three Kryptonians native to that universe who had murdered the entire population of its Earth, Superman executed the trio, believing there was no other way to stop them. The tremendous guilt Superman felt over this act combined by the psychic manipulation by his foe Braniac, caused him to develop a temporary split personality. Believing himself to be potentially dangerous to humanity, Superman exiled himself to space, eventually taken prisoner by the forces of the alien tyrant Mongul. During this time Superman resolved never to kill again...." Superman lives by the traditional moral values instilled in him by his foster parents. Superman is an idealist, devoted to promoting "truth, justice, and the American way," and has proved over and over that he is a true hero, capable of whatever bravery and self-sacrifice is necessary to right a wrong or save a life.

►My dearest Twinney ; CharleneFoo!
You will be going for 'holiday' tomorrow morning and i will miss you! Time really do files fast enough and now, you are going back to Thailand. Will miss all those, we have done together which was filled with laughter and smiles. No worries for that! I'll be awaiting for you to arrive back to Singapore on the 27th! Well, don't forget to come back with a smile and i don't want to see you sad and thinking about the same old issue when you are back!. Also, all those that you have promised yourself, to try to forget. If not, come back and go for it. Those stuff, Jiayou on it. Do takecare of yourself when you leave for Thailand tomorrow. Ohyes, do remember to come back soon cause i'll be waiting for all your promises ; Sentosa, BBQ, East Coast, Prawning, etcetc! Do send me emails while you can ya! Will send you emails too! Ohyes, Thailand is cold, so do takecare and hug yourself tight when you are cold. Don't forget about your Adidas' jacket tomorrow and those photographs! Okay, shall stop typing, see you tomorrow! *winks* C:

Bye October, Happy halloween! C:

2011-10-31T23:30:00.006+08:00

► I did a good deed today, happygirl95! (Y) Ohyes, meet up with Eunice at her house downstairs and i saw a couple of Bendemeerians! Poor students, went back to school for lessons. Well, walked down to take bus down to Toa Payoh and i did a good deed, i offered an old man my seat and i stood up to wait for another seat. Felt happy, and great after a good deed. Hmm, reached interchange and train down to Woodlands, Causeway Point. Supposed to watch movie but there's no feel for those movie so yeah, shopping. Felt bored so down to Novena to walk a little, there's nothing much to walk. Totally boredness. So camwhore with Eunice at a corner and smiled our day off. Bus to Little India and off to Boonkeng. Met up with Charlene and saw MsAng and MrChen. Chatted awhile and off we go to Eunice's house to put stuff. Next, headed to Whampoa, and had Hokkien Mee and Sugar Cane! Orhsome like hell! HAHAH!, walked to Macs as Charlene had craving for ice cream, but end up she ordered a meal for 50CENTS! Effing cheap! Hee, home sweet home with Eunice!. Ohyes and i hope November is an orhsome month cause October is such a bytch this year! Anyways, it's the last last last day of October, Happy Halloween peeps! C:

Weaknesses,

2011-10-30T23:02:00.000+08:00

►I love sleeping like a pig, especially till the afternoons, late afternoons. I never like to wake up fresh and early to do nothing. Well, but if you were to ask me to wake up for some jogging, i don't mind. Hmm, i'm meeting Eunice, and i don't know who, maybe Enhai and Chiweng to have morning jogs after NovTwo. Hopefully my dear Eunice didn't forget! Ohyes, and to get those wearings for Grad night in Nov also. So yeah, today is quite a day with Charlene, Engkiat and Weijian! Went over to Charlene's house and i saw my primary school friend.! She slim down so much and became prettier! Next, use twitter while Charlene is packing her clothing. That crazy girl had feels to go cycle so we wanted to head off to East Coast to cycle. But, planned changed, we went to Compass point instead. Had Subway and the toaster is down, it didn't taste good though. Ohyes, Weijian didn't know that there's Subway in Sengkang. I was pretty shocked as he stayed around there. Ohwell, went over to Macs to meet Weijian and Engkiat. Weijian looked pretty lose and worn out! I guess he's tired. Rot here and there, slack here and there, and of course, joke!. Started walking at around 7.30pm, and we seem lost! Didn't know where to walk to, super cute of us to walk round and round. Ohoh, up to Valueshop to but MAMEE (Charlene kind of MAMA) for her mum. She gave the funny expression when a indian lady cut her queue! AHHA!, then took train with Engkiat, home sweet home and he kept on attacking my weakness. Poor meeeeeeee! Anyways, had a great laugh with him and seeing heartheart! Great day, i suppose. Hoping much that tomorrow is another orhsome day, C:

F R I E N D S ,

2011-10-30T01:25:00.002+08:00

► How do you guys classify friends as? Some good, some bad, some orhsome, some weird, some irritating, some annoying and more? Well, how much do you actually know all your friends? We may have lots and lots of friends in facebook, twitter, online, real life, and more but who will be there when you need someone to talk to, someone to rely on, someone to have fun with, someone to party with, someone to do silly things with? How many of your bunch of friends will be there, have you ever come across this thinking? I wondered! How many will defence you and cover up for your mistakes for you? How many? There's ten types of friends, i guess.

#1, mainly people who worked together with you and the classmates kind of friends ;
They are the kind of friends you work and go to school with, and sooner happen to get along together. You would try to know them a little more so that you won't have to talk about work or school related stuff all the time. Most likely to have their contact in your cell phone as you have called them once or twice for project works, social connection but you will not call them out of the blue. You would pretend as if you didn't see them when you're out shopping.

#2, people who you hang out together at work or school ;
Normally they are called the good acquaintances!. You go to school with them, you sit next to them in class, lab, canteen, etcetc but you don’t really have a lot to talk to them most of the time, unless in a big big group. Most likely know their first and last name, kind of know their character, and their basic likes and dislikes. You talk occasionally to them when you feel like it. If you were to run into them in the streets, the conversations will only be for a few minutes. You will often start with “HEY!!”, give a big grin, then ask “what are you doing here?!” and end with a “okay, see you!”.

#3, people who click off well with you ;
They share some of the same interest with you, listen to the same kind of music, like quite a number of similar stuff and it's cool to have one another around! Friends like this are easily drifted away from you once you start to lose contact. They are also the ones who will look for you to hang out with when their closer friends are all unavailable, and promptly ditch you like a post-it once they have their closer friends to hang out with.

#4, Online friends or rather uncommon friend ;
They can be the most precious you can have. Reason being, both of you are strangers, you can pour your feelings to them. Funny thing is, you will feel that you have known them for quite some time when it's only a little while.

#5, Friends with everybody else friend (You're my friend, he's your friends, so he's my friend) ;
Also, called the Connecting People. Everyone will eventually know everyone else in this big “Circle of Friends”. These are the people whom you will invite to your big birthday parties or big social gatherings to know each other, from everywhere. They will have a lot of fun together, have food and drinks, but usually after chatting for an hour or so, that’s enough for them. Whether or not they have anything much to say to each other on a one-to-one basis depends on something we call chemistry. They are fated to know each other but it’s really their choice to bring their friendship up to another level or remain at the “handshake level”.

#6, Clique ;
These are people whom you know fairly well but let’s be frank here: you are not really interested in having lunch or dinner with them alone, and chatting one-on-one. In fact, you have to constantly crack your brains to think of another superficial thing to talk about. It’s not that you guys have nothing to talk about, but it just takes effort to keep the conversation going. Therefore, such people usually belong in a medium group of 5 – 6 people – also known as our “clique”. Also, this type of friend is someone whom you haven’t been keeping in touch too much with, but if he or she is visiting town or going abroad, it would be fun to meet up for food and drinks just to chat and catch up on old times.

#7, Friends who want to meet up ;
Maybe this if for close friends! They are the ones whom you would enjoy having lunch or dinner one-on-one, enjoy holding a conversation with and enjoy joking with. They usually belong to your tightly-knit group of 3 to 4 (a more intimate clique). You guys always have a great time at dinner together, sharing laughs, memories and many great camwhoring sessions. It’s the case where, when you put everyone together, you have an even better time. The thing about this type of friend is that they make it a point to keep in touch with you because they actually do miss you, and they really want to spend time with you and know what’s up with your life, and share with you theirs. Oh, and they will remember your birthday and never fail to wish you.

#8, Friends who feel for you ;
The “the great minds think alike” kind of friend. You guys are almost always on the same frequency, think in the same logic and feel things in the same way. Whenever you say something, the other party will go “YA YA YA THAT’S EXACTLY HOW I FEEL TOO!” or “OMG, YOU THINK LIKEWISE TOO!!”, then you both will end up high-fiving each other in laughter/giggles, and the feeling is just fabulous. You guys can really talk about anything under the sun, and you totally understand how each other feel. This friend makes you feel good all the time because you know for sure that somewhere out there, someone agrees with you.

#9, Best friend ;
Also known as your closest friend in your life. You like to talk to each other on the phone all the time. You always have a great time eating dinner together with him or her alone on a semi-regular basis and chatting one-on-one for hours. Can easily spend the whole day with each other everyday. Compatibility and rapport is always present so much that both parties enjoy each other’s company and share genuine laughs. Being with this type of friends can be both fun and emotionally fulfilling. They make you feel happy to be alive.

Lastly, #10, Significant other friend ;
The significant other is known by many names, most frequently called boyfriend, girlfriend, husband or wife. They are the ones you share your life with. They are the people who love you, and you love them too. You can totally be yourself when you’re around them.

So anyway, choose your friends wisely, and remember to treasure the friends you really enjoy being with. Okay, that's all for today's FRIENDs post! C:

Motherly luv,

2011-10-29T14:41:00.091+08:00

► Many asked me why am i always on a happy face! But how many of you guys ever wondered why i always place a smile on my face?, be it rain or shine, happy or unhappy, sad or depressed, angry or pissed negative or positive. So am i truly happy? Are those smiles real or fakes? Well, if you know the reason why, it's smart of you but at the same time, you are kind of rubbish. Reason being, i don't even know why either. Yes, i know myself best, i know what's wrong over here and there. At times, when i am pissed with something, i will show, but it's somehow one out of a hundred percentage. And it's so little. I never like to show the attitude you guys show me when it comes to this. Really, i guess it's really childish to show others the same attitude they given you. Like although i used to do that. Next, many say i forgive easily, but how do you people know if i have forgotten? But truth is, i forgive people and forget things real fast. I don't hold grudges! It's a waste of time to do that and yes, i find it silly at most of the times. I believe everyone screw up some things in their life, so does me. Well, i don't ask for much, i just want a happy life, that's it. Anyways, i just screwed something really bad recently. I don't feel good about it. I wonder and i don't really know how to clean up this big mess. Also, i have been really tired of playing every single day but with the like a boss attitude, i don't want to find a job!. Neither does my mummy want me to find a job now, she thinks that i am still little and young! Speaking of that, i don't think people want to hire me, i'm so crazy, laughing all the time like a retarded fool! Okay, i'm going to trim quite a length of my hair later and i'm feeling so sad. Wanting it to grow long and next, cut it! Whatever, i'm sad and yet, i'm smiling to myself like a retarded fool! Anyways, i rot at home the whole day. Supposed to go out with my cousins and brother, end up my brother not free. Supposed to head out with Charlene and Jingwen but didn't felt like going so stayed at home. And yeah, getting out for hair cut later! I will miss my hair! Ohyes, i ate the 15th Kitkat bar and i'm still eating, i love the chocolate so much! It's so tasty! Anyways, mummy got cook dinner today, ORHSOMEEEEEEEEEEE! C:

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►Hey Aravin 'Likeaboss Dan (via Facebook),
Yes, you're the first one to like my 'status', so yeah, here's your post! Well, thanks for being such a great friend, and also an orhsome one! Hmm, could count as close friend ya?, I like hanging out with you, prawning with you, movie with you, eat with you, bowling with you, joke around with you and doing amazing things with you were all fun! Andyes, you're really like a boss and i like your like a boss attitude. You are someone who keeps things to yourself and take comments in but don't do it often, you won't be able to take the final blow! I do know that people insult you with your race but you just take it as nothing happen, sometimes you even joke with it. I like your attitude, really. Anyways, smile and laugh like now, be happy always and let's hang out more. A great friend indeed! C:

►Hey WeiJian Nipapafeidiao (via Facebook),
Ohyes, we didn't know each other from the beginning till both you and her texted me, as somethings happened. Well, Great knowing you as a friend. Thanks for being there when i needed someone to talk to, like although i don't talk to people about my personals much. Hmm, i just hope that things are great between you and her. Put yourself in both our shoes, we don't have good feelings either. Anyways, do smile more and stop keeping everything to yourself, let it out, let it off, let it go. I just hope you smile more. Things that we don't wished for, happened. I know it's hard to take it, but you got to learn to. Not all promises are promised! Move on! Thanks for those 11:11 wishes, appreciated much. I know you want those to be like the past, but sorry, i'm not doing it. Smile and let it go. C:

►Hey Kevan Lovethewayyousmile Ü (via Facebook),
Oppsy!, i have never took a photo with you before. Ohyes, you're a great friend who are always staring me! We don't talk alot but, we are always staring at each other, like a boss! Well, glad to have know you. Ohya, i haven't played basketball with you yet, find one day, come out and play! Of course, goodluck for your Nlevel results and also Olevel for Maths. Andand, you got a very gangster face. Don't so fierce uh, friendly a little! HAHH! Hmm, hang out soon, C:

►Hey Samson Takoyaki (via Facebook),
Thanks for being there when i nearly broke down in class that particular day. Thanks for the little talk. Also, thanks for borrowing me your iPhone to play with the game, Ninjump. It's such a nice game. Ohya, do hang out soon. Thanks for being a listener and a wonderful friend! Ohh, sorry for choosing that EPIC picture of yours, cause i found out that we never talk picture together, i couldn't find any. HAH!, ohyesGoodluck for your results, hang out soon! Smile your day, kiddo! C:

►Hey FaRis Syahmi (via Facebook),
I'm not sure where to start from. Well, you're a great! But a little too quiet. I notice you like to be alone and don't like to mess around, do mess around okay! HAH!, so hang out more. Ohyes, not forgetting to give you some luck for your Nlevel results. Hopefully you are going for Grad night! I don't know what to say. Ohyes, smile ya?, you don't smile much! C:

►Hey Samantha 'likeaboss Chua (via Facebook),
Siaosot!, purplicious! Cute luhh, cute luhh! I don't have a photo with you, why you never take photo with me! I so sad uh! Why you so bad, why you so bad?, Take photo with everybody but me uh! I go draw circles already luhh! HAHH!, kidding uh, but must take picture with me soon hor. Ohya, how's results? Pretty fine ya? Anyways, study hard hor. But now, play hard, JIAYOU! Hmm, miss me kay, i will go back and visit you if i don't return for 5n uh, no worries. Ask me out soon, berry long since i see you and thanks for making me smile and laugh at your silliness every time i see you. You're orhsome!! And hor, you don't have the like a boss attitude, i have! HAHA!, you too cute cannot be like a boss. Hmm, maybe like a cute boss? HAHAH!, hang out soon! C:

►Hey Charmaine Goh (via Facebook) ,
First to have a landscape photo posted. Well my dear Penguin, i can't find others, and i think this picture is great! Anyways, how's life? We haven't been talking much right. Hmm, hopefully you are still enjoying netball. Ohyes, don't so gangster leyy, be good girl. Hang out soon, call me uh! Anyways, don't always sad sad de leyy, all your status so emo de. Cheer up a little, smile your day off. Smiles, C:

►Hey Lynn IsCrazy (via Facebook),
Same to you, we never taken photo before, maybe for that one which was taken together with Fangdi during last year's Grad night. Well, i'm pretty sure, results are great right? Well, JIAYOU for the rest of your secondary school life ya, you're a good dancer. Ohyes, hang out soon! Hmm, how's life in the council? Hopefully it's fine. Well, see you during the camp in Nov. Be happy with life ya, look ont he positive side of life and move towards it. Cheerios! C:

►Hey Aw Wei Lie Shitonyourface (via Facebook),
I find really you cute and chubby. Good thing okay, i want also don't have! Well, stay chubby hor. Anyways, hopefully your results are good. You're a great friend to me, do stay orhsome! HAH!, and you have got an EPIC facebook name! But i like! Well, enjoy your holidays and play hard. When school reopens, work comes in. Jiayou! GOGOGO! And you didn't tell me what colour you want, so i random gave you a colour! Hopefully you like it. Stay happy and smile your day off, everyday! C:

►Hey Ah Bee SotSot (via Facebook),
LIMSHENGHONG!, *oppsy* too loud, i thought you cannot hear uh! You berry act cute leyy, why don't want put Shenghong?, why put Ah bee?!, Hi, my name is bee and i sting people! AHAHA!, kidding. Well, thanks for being there to cheer me up in those EXCOs days with RONALDNGJINGKAI and Co.! It had been orhsome with all your stupid and silly jokes. But you are a little bitter too perverted! No offence, sorry if i've hurt you! Don't spread it to the juniors uh, don't be naughty! Ohyes, hang out soon, I want to see you during the Grad night and smarty dressed, compared to last year! HAH!, and you should learn Tchoukball! Really, you should. Suntang is a good coach, so must learn! And lastly, don't go around spreading your 'knowledge'.! C:

►Hey YongSian Wong (via Facebook),
I don't know why this colour but yes, here's your post. You're a potential netball player and you play good netball. You are a great junior which i have. Hopefully, you don't lose interest in netball. Well, will be back visiting you guys soon! Ohyes, be positive with life, don't be so negative. Smile your day and it will turn out to be unexpected day! Hang out soon. Don't always so emo uh, cheer a little. Smile to brighten up your lovely day! Smile girl! C:

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2011-10-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Life is not what others decide, life is what you create. Remember that only you can decide your own life. No one can stop you from it, but yourself.

Dearest Earthlings!, how was all your day? My was pretty fine! Ohyes, met Charlene, Aravin and Shan at Boonkeng and i was late. Woke up at 11plus today, but i was late for just a few minutes. Ohya, Aravin and Shan wore the same flag but different shirt today, coincidence! Next, train down to Promenade to meet Enhai then up to Suntec City, the EngWah Cinema. Bought tickets for 'Real Steel' and off to Carefour to buy snacks and drinks. Well, i find the movie quite nice, like although i don't like robotics' show. Hmm, that little kiddo, Max, was superb cute with his robot, Atom! Great fight with Zeus at the berry ending. Guess it's just 4 out of 5 lovely stars! Can't blame me, i'm born to dislike robots! After that movie, off to Old Town White Coffee for brunch, for me. Walked our way to MarinaSquare for Bowling! For the first time, i won but only win Shan by ONE POINT! Bus back to Boonkeng and off to school for star gazing. I've got a GREEN light stick! And i was feeling really GREEN today, GREEN tee, GREEN, jacket, GREEN shoe, GREEN light stick and now, GREEN headphone! Anyways, went down to the canteen to ask Zhonglin for help on some stuff and played fingering number game with Yeeting, Enhai, Wenhao, Zhonglin, Jason, Yaowei and Yongkiat. Super EPIC and funny. Poor Yaowei got bullied. Had a really orhsome laugh and soon, the auntie came, so the signal was given and yeah, left the canteen. Went over to the basketball court to fins Charlene. Up to the third floor with Enhai and Charlene and home sweet home alone! Could say that it was boring much! C:

Creating the reality is about changing your reality. Just remember, your reality or life is a reflection of your dominant beliefs.

Is everyone like that?

2011-10-27T23:46:00.003+08:00

Your past is not your potential, in any hour you can choose to liberate the future.

Attention to all lovely humans who is or are reading my blog! I got my orhsome blog fixed! Sorry for the private block earlier on, it's due to some screw wires here and there. My blog went haywire and i was 'treating' it with good care and that little little patient of mine! Was about to go haywire and crazy with my blog too, but finally, i got it back to something better and something i want, more. Well, and that's kind of why, people says that i'm a little way too itchy hand. Anyways, school today was kind of orhsome, fun is the word i should use. Well, met Eunice, Charlene and Enhai at Macs this morning and didn't eat, didn't have the feeling to eat so skipped. Next, headed off to school and did survey in the canteen for those stuff we did in school as volunteers. Together with Eunice, Charlene, Enhai, Gilbert, Benedict, Sunthar, Chiweng, Rahmat, Nicholas walked our way to the i-spaze and got ourselves settled down. Waited for a little while, carried some stuffs and got up to the bus, with MsLee. Chatted with some of the humans on the bus and choose our stations! HELLYEAH!!

My partner for the day is Seah Enhai, in case you don't know who is he, he's in the orhsome photo taken by my dearest junior, Mavis, on the top of my post! Ohwell, don't ask me who is Mavis. Hmm, went to explore the Sustainable Singapore Gallery at Marina Barrage and Enhai taught me how to make rain! So cool! And i think i'm berry dumb! AHH!, found a spot to sit down and slack while the students came looking for us. Managed to slack and give tips to the SecTwos.! Had fun singing and laughing with Enhai at some random EPIC moves.! Everything ended at around 10.50am and down to assemble. Had some prize giving stuff and back to school. Took some group photos and home sweet home with Charlene. Rest awhile, help her to change her blog stuff and off to Eunice's house to have some Pizza! Then off to school for Captain ball! Home sweet home after that, i'm feeling a little tired. Korkor made me dinner just now and it was very nice but still, i finished. It's not the first time he's cooking for me, but i always like it when korkor cooked for me. How sweet can he be! Okay, i'm done for now! C:

The more we sweat in peace, the less we bleed in war.

Coldness over me,

2011-10-26T23:45:00.015+08:00

I'm sad, hurt, angry, mad, disappointed. But you know what? I'll just put on a smile and move on. It will hurt but i will survive.

Hello peopleeeeee!, so yeah, really tired with all those exercises and fun i had these few days! I'm already getting a little bit too sick for partying and fun! Ohwell, short post for today, just a summary uh! Hmm, meet up with Enhai, Rahmat, Charlene and Darren at mrt. Headed to Kovan for breakfast and pool. Next, back down to Boonkeng to have lunch and bus down to East coast. I swear today's weather is horrible leyy! Ohyes, was berry cold, but didn't shiver much. Soon, had dinner, Macs again at East coast! Getting fat, but i love it. Home sweet home with Enhai and had a great chat. Okay, i don't have much time, got to finish those bubbly words for my class thingy! Ohwell, goodbye! C:

It will all get better in time to come.

Easily bullied,

2011-10-25T20:10:00.007+08:00

I'm mature enough to forgive you, but not dumb enough to trust you again.

Supposed to meet Charlene, Enhai and Eunice at Macs for breakfast this morning but i overslept. So meet them outside school instead, walked in like a boss. Well, up to the staffroom to get the equipments for the solar astronomy thingy. Next, head off to SJI junior. Set up the thingy, i don't know what's that called, to be able to spot the sun spot. AHHA!, laughing like a mad girl with Danial, Nicholas, Weijie, Rafiq and Benedict. Seriously, we are like some bunch of fools.! Ohyes, not much sun for today, was feeling really tired, due to late sleeping last night. But who cares?, back to school at around 12pm and went back to the staffroom to place those equipments. Off to the noodles' house to have lunch with Eunice, Enhai and Charlene. Home sweet home and had an hour plus of naps with Charlene. Really great, was blasting musics and sleeping at the same time. Orhsomeee! HAH!, back to school for captain ball. I'm officially, down with injuries! Home sweet home alone and mummy didn't tell me that she didn't cook. So, i was wondering if i should wait for that idiot to have dinner together! Anyways, i'm hungry, and i'm tired, so BYEBYEBYEBYEBYE!! C:

A good friends knows all your best stories, a best friend has lived them with you.

Speaking of the devils,

2011-10-24T22:04:00.004+08:00

Don't call a girl or lady, a slut if she's wearing shorts, a bitch when she's proving a point, a flirt when she's being nice, or obsessed when she's in love with someone or something.

Woke up, brush up and wash up! Mummy came home early enough to make breakfast for all of us! Ate porridge and it was filled with orhsomeness! Waited for Charlene till 7.25am and she finally reached my house with all her bags and all! Met up with Eunice, Enhai, Charlene and Chiweng at Kianhua. Had a small bowl of soup and Aunty was so kind, she didn't charge me money! Next, headed to school and lepak in the canteen! Went school to paste, cut and mess around with the stickers for the stairs! We decorated the school! (Y) Ohyes, i think our school is super hot and warm, was filled with salty water when i was doing the 'job'. Lunchtime was with Eunice, Priscilla, Charlene and MsAng! Thanks MsAng for the treat! <: Home sweet home with Charlene to change into sport attire and off to school for Captain ball! Before that, went to have a sweaty run with Charlene and Bryant, and i saw my face, so -.-! Was so tired, guess my stamina dropped. Got to train up a little! So, captain ball was quite fun i guess, despite accidents, so forgiving and forgetting is the key! Neh, don't want to talk about it. Ohyes, saw Ronald after such a long long time.! And Shan keep saying i have apes! I don't have, i don't bloody have it! Ohgosh, that gross if i have it. Eew! Anyways, had craving for Macs, so off to Macs with Eunice, Charlene, Shan, Aravin, Darren and Enhai. McSpicy made my day orhsome! HAHAH!, home sweet home with Eunice after that, felt so great after those talks. OHYEAH! C:

The truth hurts, but then again, living in a world full of lies is more painful.

P-rawningggg, (Y)!

2011-10-23T23:20:00.007+08:00

Before asking someone why they hate you, ask yourself why you even really care.

I guess a short post will do. So yeah, supposed to stay at home and be the biggest pig of all but Charlene ask me out, together with Darren and Aravin. I was late, headed off to Popeye to have lunch! Next to prawning, with Charlene, Darren, Aravin and Weijian came after that! Could say that it's fun, and horrible. I don't have the bloody guts to kill the prawns alive, so horrible and disgusting. I don't want to describe it, for me to know, for you ro find out! AHHA! Ohyes, and i saw the beautifoolness of Punggol, some ORHHSOMENESS! Walked down to the red bridge and walked over for ice cream! Tasty much, (Y)! Andyes, it's chocolate chips, had two servings, so ORHHSOMEE! Hee, walked to bus stop and Darren left, while Charlene, Weijian and me took the bus. Mrt to Boonkeng with Weijian, i don't know what's wrong with him, not getting down and Sengkang. Anyways, headed home with Engkiat as he was so sweet to wait for me. Hmm, disturb each other like a sot, ORHHSOMEE uh! HAHA!, home sweet home and i'm still alone at home.! C:

Every man is afraid of something. That's how you know he's in love with you; when he is afraid of losing you.

Black, and white,

2011-10-22T22:25:00.005+08:00

If you ain't happy when you're single, you won't be happy when you're taken. Happiness comes from within, not from men.

HELLYEAH, i'm back from an awesome day with Andy, Charlene, Chiweng, Chongkai, Darren, Engkiat, Eunice, Leo, Shenghong, Sunthar, Teckhuat, Weijian. So my day, went like this, up to Eunice's house to help out with the food. Basically, i just had a 'fight' with the Squid! Was laughing really hard with Eunice and Charlene. Soon after we finished, went over to the living room to watch Spongebob Squarepants and Jimmy Neutron on Nickelodeon, together with Charlene and Eugene. Down at around 3pm, met Andy and Chiweng under Block3!. On the way, we saw Sunthar and walked to the Mrt together to met Chongkai, Darren and Weijian. So, we split up and went separate ways. Andy, Chiweng, Chongkai and Sunthar went to buy drinks and collect satays then, Charlene, Darren, Eunice, Weijian and me, went down to Marine Parade's Fair price. And the jokiest thing happened, we took the wrong bus. Haha!, Infact all of us, bust out in laughter and all we could do is to alight at Lavender to take MRT to Kallang. Took bus197 and head off to Marine Parade. Bought those food and stuff, then off to East Coast Park! Bought my happypill, like a happygirl! (Y) Those who went to buy drinks and take satays came and fire were started! Soon, Shenghong came blading with a smile!! After Charlene went cycling with Sunthar, i went cycling with Sunthar and Teckhuat! Was laughing like a fool, despite those conversation on Benedict. Funny much! Did a little catch up with all our life and screamed our way back! Engkiat and Leo came and thanks to Engkiat, i've got some plain mineral water! Ohyes, took group photo and Eunice and Chongkai went off. Breezer were shared and the taste was awesome. Andand, Pokemon is on the trend again. Ohyes, Engkiat bully me, ask me to feed him as he don't want his hand to be dirty. And he's damn lazy to wash his hands! Anyways, chatted with humans and caught up by a little with each others' life.

In the morning, went to shower with Charlene. Walked out way to the toilet that has cubical! Had a great heart-to-heart chat with her about ahem! Ohyes, the water is superb cold and i was jumping in the toilet! And i showered faster then Charlene this time round. HAHAH!, went back to the pit and chatted all the way till everyone get bored and suggested for pool. So headed to Marine Parade Pool, 3 tables for us to play. Had an awesome fun time and great time to laugh all out heads off. I guess i played terribly! Was really tired, i guess. Shenghong left and head home. Ohoh, end pool at 5plus and down to the bus stop. Actually wanted to head home but decided to have Macs breakfast so off to Macs! Next, board bus with Andy, Chiweng, Engkiat, Leo, Sunthar, Teckhuat, Weijian. They all sleep like a boss, especially LIMENGKIAT! Andand, home sweet home with Andy, Chiweng, Engkiat and Sunthar. Reached home, lay flat on the floor and slept till around 3pm when the construction starts. Ohyes, shower and chatted with Charlene. Off to meet her, to cheer her a little and also, Jackets! Next, off to have chili crab and all for dinner with part of my family! Wellwell, send Charlene off to mrt and meet Engkiat! Wangzainiunai on the way home and had a great laugh! But he bullied me today, very guailan! Still, i disturbed him! Ohya, home sweet home with him! C:

I like it when you smile. C:

Let's recap. C:

2011-10-21T10:40:00.003+08:00

The rose speaks silently of love, in a language known only to the heart.

I want to get up with some sports today, maybe some runs or jogs, but my ankle is holding me back. Seriously holding me back.. But i really miss those time in school, having tough, funny, awesome trainings in school and out of school. Be it tchoukball or netball, i was a better player in sports than a students who work on academic. To me, study is nothing. I do know that studying will lead me to a better future but nope, my idea of studying is just to make friends and have fun. Not forgetting, enjoying school life.! Smile, laugh and stay happy, just to let the day past by! Likewise for results, not a biggie. I don't achieve good results like the others, maybe like Chunren, Ronald or even some top student in my class or my level. I do know where i stand in results. Wellwell, i can't possibly change and turn into a good student in academic over a night right?, i wouldn't want it either. Life is too short for those studying, like i always said, 'where got time?' Ha, if it's for sports, i don't mind investing time in it. Maybe i'm born to be a really sporty girl, what can i do?, i'm born this way! Nope, we can't be blamed on how we are born, but we could change ourselves to a better human in life. Some humans rather be some sluts or even bytches when they don't have to. Why make themselves so low? Like really?! Ohwell, i got no comments about it. C:

Next, in relationships. We fight, quarrel, laugh, smile, cry, basically we do everything! Well, humans do go through failures in relationship, sweetness in relationship, bitter in relationship but that doesn't mean, we should all give up and lose faith in relationship! Hmm, many said that they gave up but end up, they are with someone else. To ask, would you want someone who love you as well as you love him or her who have no money or someone who don't love you and yet you love him or her and got lots of money? To me, i rather have the first one than the second. Money isn't everything, really. Money can't buy happiness, money can't buy love. Hmm, some told boyfriends or girlfriend for granted. Really, this kind of human doesn't deserve more. Some have high expectations, but to think back, does those expectations needed? What matter most is, happy or not. Not rich or not. Ohoh, but if that someone is rich and he or she love you as well, it's just a bonus for you but what matter most is you, being yourself and being happy. Andand, never change because of someone you like unless it's necessary. C:

Families, friends and love ones!, never take anyone of them for granted. If they leave you one day, be prepared to make a change to yourself. Sometimes, it's all those stuff you do, that makes everyone detest you, really. Do some self-reflection before commenting too. Hmm, do cherish your families, love ones and of course your friends. Don't wait till they leave, and you start to regret! It will cost you quite a bomb. Do something before losing. You can afford to gain but not to lose. That's about it. Ohyesohyes, i will be going out to 'PARTY' today, BARBEQUEEEE with Co.! Do miss me, i will be back soon. Like i think tomorrow if i'm toning tonight with Co. Shall decide later if i should ton tonight. Andand, i will someone right cause he's missing me left! *winks* HAHA!, practically inside joke. You don't have to understand! Okay, shall stop here, bye! C:

Not everything in life is meant to be understood. Some things just happen without a reason and all we can do is to learn from them and move on.

Left alone in this house,

2011-10-20T17:42:00.039+08:00

Sometimes things are better unsaid. A secret should be blocked from any ears and unspoken to anyone.

Be lucky cause at least you've gotten a family that still are in a piece. Sometimes i asked myself, what does Family stands for? What does each little letters stands for, but i always get different answers. So what does it even stands for? Showing each other with love and respect, filled with smiles and laughter? I really don't know. Hmm, google defined family as a family when it consist children and adults. What a stupid answer! Anyways, people who still have their family in a piece, create awesome memories out of it, don't wait till you've lost every single one of them then you learn how to cherish. Sure enough, it will double up your painfoolness! Saying this, as you guys haven't meet something worst. Okay, i should shut up, byebyeeeeeeee! C:

Best thing, that ever been mine.

Don't push us down,

2011-10-19T20:18:00.002+08:00

I try never to get my hopes to high because every hello ends with a goodbye.

HOHO!, school was a mix up, awesome yet so negative yet so random! I don't know how to feel today, really. Ohyes, just listened to Justin bieber's Mistletoe, i think it's a new song, it's quite nice! (Y) Whatever it is, meet Eunice, Charlene and Enhai at Kianhua for breakfast then walked into school. Felt so uncomfortable as everyone is wearing school uniform but only a small group of us! Hmm, my class only had pathetic four students today! How pathetic can this be?, Wellwell, had a short break and head off to Yishun's bowling center! Felt so sick when i got down but still able to walk. Anyways, had briefing after briefing by Coach Ken (sp?) and a little by Coach Eric. Had a little fun, i guess. Back to school for briefing by MrNg. Off to foyer for a little chat and off to have lunch at Kianhua with Charlene and Enhai! Next, up to my house to slack and they slept. Guess, they were too tired. So i was enjoying the television all by myself. Soon, Enhai returned to school and Charlene woke up! Tied our hair, watch television and off to school for captain ball! Andand, today's game was .. Ah, nevermind. I think i enjoyed?!, i don't know. Ohwell, bye! C:

Everyone will hurt you at least once, so find someone that's worth the pain.

Silly, silly,

2011-10-18T23:46:00.001+08:00

Tears are a memory that is surpassing one way or the other. It's a way to get rid of the stuffed feelings and move on from the problem.

OH HI!, i;m back for some updates of my day today. Went to meet Enhai and Charlene at Kianhua, and i nearly fall asleep while waiting for them at home. Walked my way down to find them, and my ankle was hurting. :/ Didn't did i expect to swell so much. I didn't listen to white's advice and indeed i went to school. Had a really hard time to walk but overall, it was still okay! Assemble in school for flag raising and next, canteen to lepak awhile before heading out of school. Thanks Enhai for keeping my skirt for me and constantly asking me if i'm fine. Ohyes, was split into group, together with Allen, Charlene, Chiweng, Dillon, Eunice, Enhai, Teckhuat and Sunthar! Had briefing from MrsVivien and soon, we walked our way to Block 4C! So yes, went up with Eunice, Charlene, Enhai and Chiweng, but somehow no luck, only a few humans opened the door. Anyways, headed to Block 3 after that and did managed to collect only Newspapers! Next, went to Block 2 when Enhai and we made a fool out of ourselves. Entertain ourselves, sang and i think we woke humans up! Hee, many of them opened their doors but only one human gave us old textbook, storybook and dictionaries, the rest are all newspapers. Headed down at level 9 to place those newspapers on the floor and head up again. Ohya, thanks to that kind soul who held the lift for us earlier on. C:

Upup, here we go, up to level 8 and 7 for more. Down again to put those newspapers. The same kind soul held the lift for us and he smiled to us! Ohoh, we saw the rag and bone man and we sold the newspaper to him. He was happy at that time. Last level, at level 6! More newspapers! Hee, got down and sold the newspaper to the rag and bone man again. Off to Block 1 to find the others and had coke! Thanks MrsVivien!, also Sunthar and Charlene! Back to school to lepak again in the canteen and sorted out the books for primary school! Some irritating ass, just stand down there and smile to himself and the worst thing he can do is do nothing. Apparently i scolded him. Well, sorry for scolding you but you went too far. Everyone was working and you just do nothing. Way too much! Next in the hall, Deepavali cum MrsWong's farewell celebration! Was laughing all the way with Eunice, Enhai and Charlene. After it ended, went to the noodles' house to eat with Enhai, he was seriously funny! HAHAH!, and he sent me home after that, thanks Ahhai! Ohyes, hoping much that i'll be able to attend school tomorrow! I don't want to miss school. Andand, mummy was asking me to find a boyfriend soon, she keep complaining that i don't know how to takecare of myself, is this true? Even white says so! Hmm.. C:

I love when a guy gets worried and does not admit it, until much later.

Confession?

2011-10-17T20:35:00.007+08:00

If you are planning to chase me from behind, i will promise to run slow!

Hello earthlings!, okay, a little bit too mad from just now. I think i'm feeling better now! Well, practically some irritating kid. Hmm, had a great day at school, i think. Managed to find a spare phone and had so much text! Anyways, did some handwork then to have some fun with the Solar thingy. C: Ohyes, had a great laugh with Eunice, Charlene and Enhai!. Hopefully tomorrow is better. *winks* Andand, lepak around the canteen and had an awesome talk to Weisi. He's a pretty funny guy! Ate lunch with Enhai and Charlene at Kianhua. Then off to my house for some slacking time, they played UNO! Like a kid! HAHH!, shouting here and there, pretty funny! Back to school for captain ball and unfortunately, i sprained my ankle. Pain much, at that moment my tears was in my eyes, *ouch* Carried myself to the side of the court and treat myself with my way! HAHAH!, pain but felt better. Thanks Aravin for offering ice and sorry for the rejection. Also, thanks Enhai, Charlene, Weijian, Aravin, Prema and co. for your concern. I'm really fine! Hee, had a great laugh at myself and i felt better. Went in to play again, and my ankle was pretty numb. And now, i'm suffering. How great! Ohyes, walked home and saw my brothers, and this effing kid whom tested me. Well, watch out little kiddo! I'll make you pay for what you had said! Unlucky you, you're in my school. And of course, YOU MESS WITH THE WRONG GIRL! I did warned you, but you choose it this way! Got balls right?! So, you are deserving this. I don't need your apologise, and please, you choose to have the balls, i didn't force you! So be it, we shall see, who got the balls in the end!. Have the balls to mess up, have the balls to clean it up! Better yet, don't let me see you, if not i will decorate your pretty face! You should thank me, HAHAHAHAH! And please, i won't be irritated or angry just because you did something.. C:

Don't ask for opinions and get mad when he or she tells you the truth. If not, don't ask.

Boring Sunday,

2011-10-16T14:38:00.001+08:00

If you're happy, don't try and figure out why, just go with it and enjoy it while it lasts.

Okay, i'm freaking bored! Serious boredness, occupying me the whole of today! Hmm, listening to all kinds of random music i can find, spamming lyrics here and there in everyone's conversation and making a fool out of myself at home! Scrolling through some photos for great laugh! Ohyes, had a really awesome and delicious lunch with mummy, and it's been so long since we had a meal together and of course, an awesome chat about her great life! Andyeah, i feel a little bit too retard, at home, making funny faces to entertain myself and of course, doing silly stuff to keep myself occupied. Weird hur! Anyways, i'm SUPER BORED! Stay at home the whole day and i thought there's something to do, but there's nothing but housework! So yeah, decided to give it a skip. Anyways, had dinner alone, at home. So not tasty uh, not nice. Hmm, i think it's okay ya? Cause i'm going to school tomorrow, like hellyeah! Couldn't say at home, any longer! C:

Get me out of boredom please..

It's 15th, do you remember?! C:

2011-10-15T19:42:00.007+08:00

Dear you,

It's a year since back then ya?, kind of miss you though. How's life?, i guess it's still as awesome yeah? Nope, i don't miss you like the last time, i don't miss you often, so much, anymore. Well, i hope life has been really great, or rather awesome for you! But still, miss you a little here and there, up and down, left and right! Hmm, live on and make much more memories with your clique, your friends and others. Maybe also your next girl. Never ever doubt your lady! It's just a piece of advice, listen or not, it's up to you! Don't keep on telling me, you won't get another one, cause you will. HAH!, it's been so long.. Let's see.. I got to know you in Sec One or Two, but didn't talk, we were just hi-byes friend in the past. Soon, in Sec Three, you were one of the organizer for the Student leaders' conference, just like myself. We began to teased each other, laugh, crack jokes, and disturb people together. Really funny back then. Next, we texted and things happened! Thanks for cheering me up! Well, sorry for what happened that day at your house. It's been so long, please forget those. AHAHA!, very much, we talk during the nights. Really, i miss those night calls, those sweet messages and stuff. Simply everything! Especially that particular night! Hmm, so much happened in between us and nope, i won't forget! Truly yes, the hurt is tremendous, but you're forgiven. Like i've said, i place no blame! Anyways, i wish you best. Pretty much happy that at least we are still talking! See you around! And yes, let those songs, die with those memories! *misses*

Withluv, me! C: